~Cutie Angel~

26/2/12 Sunday

2012-02-26T11:15:00.001+08:00

Bye everyone, Again XD

2012-01-26T14:28:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year * Chu 4

#lastpostbeforeenteringcamp

2012-01-23T23:58:00.003+08:00

Update some leftover tidbits about my 18 days Nasional Service =)

Our toilet and our dorm, quite near :)

Inside view of our dorm, long like a train XD

My friend even brought her piggie there, haha

Can spot my bed? The most messy one X)

The white shirt girl came from Sabah, she sleeps beside me :)

The piggie owner brought her mattress cover along too! She is really building her room here XD

Tadahhh~ My bed and my locker =D

Poor management causes my bed always messy like this zz

Lydia Kong, the only Chinese ketua for company Alpha!

The most friendly girl in the camp.

The first girl who came to my bed and chatted with me on the first day ;)

Our meal :) We have to wash our cup and plate everytime we finish using it...

Foods are not bad, just i have to immune myself with the spiciness sometimes...

*First day when we gathered at the Dewan Taklimat, i saw a girl who looked so familiar to me!

My first thought was: OMG! Why Jye Sze is here?!?!?!

Features of her: 1) Thin 2) Brownish long straight hair 3) Wear specs 4) Fair 5) Shy

After that, i only realized that you didnt kena ns, how would you exist at there? zZ

(To Jye Sze) I had taken down some evidences to prove that she really looks like you XP

Side view, look alike leh :P

*Turn more*, look even more alike! ;)

Okay, that's all for now...

Happy Chinese New Year everyone =)

逆战！

2012-01-23T23:41:00.002+08:00

21/1/2012 星期六

今天是我们期待已久的日子，看《逆战》的日子！

这天的来临，我们真的等了很久，很久……

从我们看周杰伦上一套电影，一起读书，熬过艰难的大考，我再进国家服务营！

仪买了10.10pm的戏票，很夜吧？没办法，必须等她收工才可以一起看 =）

看《逆战》之前，我拜托她买了1张《我爱香港2012》6pm 的戏票打算自己去看, 因为王琳说她不得空陪我看，隔天她就要回乡了，肯定必须忙着收拾收拾。

本来我的计划就是，我自己看了《我爱香港2012》后再去会王琳，吃过晚餐才等仪收工……

我5.30pm跟仪拿过票后，自己从Empire走去Subang Parade 逛逛，再买个爆米花进戏院。

我一坐下，就看见一个似曾相识的身影走过来坐了我隔壁！原来是王琳！XP

她吓我一跳！她怎么突然出现在电影院里？？

原来她和仪早就合好一起给我一个惊喜，谢谢啦！超惊喜的 =D

没有想到她俩的演技那么好，竟然把我给蒙住了！O.O

之后我们看完戏后，在仪打工的餐厅吃过晚餐才和仪一起去看《逆战》。

《逆战》不错，我打6/10 =）

看完《逆战》后，商场都打烊了，我们仨被困在里面！幸好仪的哥哥教我们走出去，然后载我们会她家……她家装修到很美哦！

大概12.30pm 我们都在仪家等父母来接我们，爸爸在后面的嘛嘛档等我，却突然间被一位新手撞了他的车 O.O

他还叫了他的父亲出来谈判，看他们蛮有礼貌的，肯谈赔偿的事 :)

就这样过了一个特别的夜晚，谢谢你，朋友们 <3

好来好去

2012-01-23T22:09:00.002+08:00

终于可以忙里偷闲会会部落 =)

很多东西更新，我怕我虾子般的脑袋不能够装这么多记忆 T_T

20/1/2012

我在外面吃晚餐的时候，他突然sms我，然后打给我，叫我猜他是谁……

我万万想不到会是他，直到我认出他的声音。他还祝我belated生日……

他以这样的方式留下他的电话号码，让我感觉很惊讶 O.O

11.30pm, 他又打来我家, 因为我请教他怎样搭巴士 XD 我认识的人里面，他是最厉害搭巴士了！

我们聊了很多，很久……

他告诉我他每天都吃叉烧饭，一个曾经说我们的肚子是坟墓的诚心素食佛教徒竟然吃肉了？！

他真的变了很多，究竟是受了什么打击，我又有什么资格知道……

我们也聊了很多敏感的话题，有些电话里不敢问或答的，我们就会通过fb message，很废吧？

其中一道问题是love or dont really know you? 这个我用fb回答他，可是他在电话里回答我 ;)

他听到我这边一直有打字声，他就问我到底在打什么，我说是我阿姨问我为什么这么夜还没睡。

他竟然叫我回答我阿姨：我在和别人date着……lol!

我们还一直叫对方在fb add回对方(因为我们不是friend很久了)，可是我们之间没有一个愿意成为主动的，所以我们为了这个话题吵了很久……

之后多亏我几声咳嗽声，他逼我去喝水，可条件是我喝了之后他必须add我 ;)

当然，他这次有遵守承诺 =)

大概聊了3个小时，我们挂电话了。我们听起来有点暧昧吧，可是结论是我们终于彻彻底底地玩完了，再也没有什么瓜葛了……

他还说想约我出去给我生日礼物，可是我暗地里拒绝他了……他希望做回朋友，可是我告诉他，要忘记一个人最好的办法就是永远都不要再和那个人联络……

我没有想过可以再听见他的声音，好声好气地聊天。他也算是个蛮大方的男生吧？

有些东西没有了就是没有了，强求没幸福！我们可以说是互相利用学习的白老鼠吧？

无论如何，好聚好散的感情，还是可以保留美好的回忆的 =）

Bleep Test

2012-01-23T13:47:00.002+08:00

In NS, they have a Bleep Test for everyone to test our body, or can say stamina.

In school we usually did sit ups, push ups, and the thing we walked up and down to count our heartbeat right? But in ns they did Bleep Test, maybe because it's more simple?

Everyone has to run from A to B (20m) before the sound "Beep", then you reach at point B to wait for the Beep sound. After you heard the Beep, you have to run from B back to A before the sound Beep again.

We run according to our company. Each day each company, so for me Delta is the last day ;P

Delta girls has 51 people, so 51 people will run together in a row.

Delta boys run first, then each of us help each of them to record. Then our turn to run, they help us to record also.

They have stages, stage 1-12. Each stage has 7-8 rounds. When u run from A to B, means 1.1, then you come back from B to A means 1.2.... Run continuously with the Beep sound.

If you completed stage 1, then start with stage 2.1......

IF you reach the point A or B after the sound "Beep", you are counted out, or you dont have stamina to run anymore then give up yourself. Your last point will be recorded.

They are 400+ members joined this Bleep Test, approximately 200+ girls.

So, what's the point of me introducing this Bleep Test?

Is to show off that i reached the highest stage, 6.4, among all girls. The second highest got 5.9 XD

But of course guys is better, they got highest is 10+ .....

Sorry la, if Andrea is here, i dont have the chance to show off liao lo.... T__T

The 18 days of Nasional Service Kumpulan 1 Siri 9/2012

2012-01-21T11:11:00.012+08:00

Yeah, im back =) I was back at 19th but now only i free to date my bloggie :P

At first they only let us go at 20th-25th....but maybe too many people sent them letter to extend the CNY holiday, so they finally gave us 2 more extra holidays at last minute, which is 19th-26th... government quite good right ;)

Only have 6 days holidays, of course i have to accompany my mum to the max before i go in again T_T

So, i went shopping these 2 days with her, and omg i ate a lot! All my favourite food like fast food, dim sum, porridge, western food etc =)

Then, she brought me to buy my belated birthday present, it's a beg :D (Maybe she sees me using my beg for so many years and it's like sort of cacat until she beh tahan ;P)

Then, we had a movie, The Magician, i rate 8/10 ;)

Okay, so just an overall update about my 18 days in NS, with pictures taken by my dormmates on the last day...oh, it was just the last day before CNY, but we were like so sad to separate...how if we really have to separate on the very last day??? ><

My daily timetable...

5.30am Wake up

6.30am Perhimpunan, sing national song, bersenam

7.30am Breakfast

9.00am Class, called CB- Character Building

10.30am Tea time

11.00am Class

12.30pm Lunch

2.30pm Physical activities, marching, group activities

4.30pm Tea time

5.30pm Riadah, sports, jogging....

6.30pm Dinner

9.00pm Taklimat

10.30pm Supper

11.00pm Lights off!

Saturday - Buddhist go temple

Sunday- Christian go church, family day

My camp is Kem Paya Indah at Dengkil, Kuala Langat... 426 members in total (but this is not fix yet because many of them quit after medical check up)

At the beginning of ns, there were shooo hot! Sweat non stop even stomach sweats!

Sometimes 5am kena woke by Malays, because they need to sembahyang.

But what had waken us up is not the sembahyang sound, but is they way they prepared themselves! They sang songs, smashed the locker door, on all the lights and so on...

Too bad, so soon im immune to it XD So, i will be awaken at 5.45am =D

All of us are categorized into groups, CB class groups and companies...

Mostly boys(Wira) and girls(Wirawati) are separated, but together in the CB class...

Class groups (boys girls together) has CB1-6, Im in CB 1 with Wei Shen, You Chao and Wei Xing :)

Companies (boys girls separate) has Alpha, Bravo, Charlie and Delta...Im in Delta

We march, play games, do group activities according to our own companies..

Then, i'm selected as Penolong Ketua Kompeni for Delta, that's why i have a strip on my shoulder ;) But obviously Ketua Kompeni are Malays, and this is Msia T__T

Few days ago, there was a Majlis Pemakaian Pangkat for 34 of us, (4 Wira Ketua Kompeni, 4 Wira Penolong Ketua Kompeni, 4 Wirawati Ketua Kompeni, 4 Wirawati Penolong Ketua Kompeni, 8 Wira Ketua Dorm, 8 Wirawati Ketua Dorm, 1 Penghulu, 1 Penghuluwati)

Penghulu is a boy who incharge of all boys, Penghuluwati is a girl who incharge of all girls,

so Penghulu has 3 strips on their shoulder, Ketua Kompeni has 2, Penolong Ketua Kompeni has 1 and Ketua Dorm has 1...

I am sick during this 18days, until now i haven't recover T__T

Maybe is the whether too hot? the kolam water too cold? I shouted too many as a Penolong?

Their marching system quite lao beh, they didn't really teach the way to march, causes many of us march in our own way according to what badan beruniform we joined, and some of them who didnt march before dont know how to march, that's why we march in a mess!

Plus the way of command is different for different people, i followed St.John's way but what they want is different thing ==

It was so hard/ mafan to choose a Penolong Ketua Kompeni, (choose ketua is not hard because they already set for Malay). Since ketua is a Malay, then penolong cannot be a malay, so they choose from different races, and they need to test our leadership, voice, or whatever for many times, until i sore throat also keep shouting! T___T (But too bad, at last i won XD)

I quite dislike my Ketua, she is so.....like do things in her own and always ignore me ==

Without communication, perpaduan, kerjasama, how are we gonna work our company??

Besides, i also volunteer myself as Ketua Dobi for my dorm. My job is to collect all my dormmates' clothes to dobi everyday, and collect the clean clothes from dobi to my dormmates again ==

I have 2 Malays ajk, but we have some conflict because they didnt berkerjasama with me (they only want a post and just sit there without any commitment zz)

At first i wanted to scold them but luckily Suk Chyi stopped me from doing that, now we are okay already =)

Our batch is the first batch to send our clothes to the jail, for the prisoner to wash, we are the white mice :(

This is a great project of government to test whether this plan works? That's why many problems occur...like they didnt collect our clothes on time, the prisoner always conteng our clothes(they even leave their hp number on our clothes and wrote i love you...OMG!)

Okay,

Introduction of my living environment ^^

Outside view of my dorm, Dorm 6 =D

There are 8 dorms for boys and girls respectively.

Our dorm currently has 26 dorm members, 5 Chinese :)

Most of them are Malays, and some of them from Sabah and Sarawak...

This is our bed layout, we must follow their way to make the bed every morning!

Everyone has a bed, blanket, pillow and locker! All our stuffs will be kept inside the locker...

Teachers will do spot check everyday, those who didn't follow, or too messy, they will kena "tsunami" :P

Example, one of the malay's sarong was hung on the ceiling fan XD

Way of arranging the shoes under the bed....

We are given 3 shoes, marching, sport and class.

After spot check, this will be our "real face" XP

Every dorm has a toilet..quite okay right? We have to clean ourself...

For non chinese, they would like to bath/ wash clothes with this kolam, but included me XD

I also kena conned here and splashed water on my birthday XP

All our clothes were wet, but we seriously had fun =D

At night, i would like to lay on my bed to write my diary, and dear Suk Chyi will lay beside me to read her bible LOL

On the first Saturday morning, we were ordered to gotong-royong our own dorm, then all our beds were moved out and we cleaned the whole dorm !

Some of them didnt help out and still washing their clothes in the toilet =="

Introduction of my friends/dormmates^^

Kopi the girl who sat with me in the bus on the journey to our camp on the first day!

Pui Kei from Klang, our Ketua Dorm =)

In the bus heading 东禅寺 ! We did volunteer work there every Saturday :)

Dear Suk Chyi always act shy :P

Right-hand-side-girl called Hui Ying...

We are friend in fb for years and guess what? She is my tuition friend who didnt remember me!!! >(

I was shocked to see her in the bus, but she dont recognize me even we had the same tuition for 2 years T__T

Hui Ying, Lydia, Pui Kei, Natasha, Me

Penolong Ketua Charlie, Ketua Alpha, Ketua Dorm, Ketua Bravo, Penolong Ketua Delta

Woots~! 5 of us have pangkat from different companies, but from same dorm =D

Ahli Delta from our dorm =)

All my dormmates!

Left is my best friend Suk Chyi and right is Heidi who came from Sabah and sleep beside me =)

We sleep like Malay-Chinese-Malay-Chinese, because we dont know each other on the first day, and most of them came on 1st Jan, only me and Hui Ying came on 2nd Jan =O

My birthday party <3

Food and drinks sponsor by friends =)

Luckily my birthday was on Sunday (family day)!

My family can come and celebrate with me =)

We even "lao sheng" LOL!

The first Sunday my mum visited me, she brought Cone Pizza for me XD

Feelings of Nasional Service....not bad =) Quite enjoyable, and nice experience ;)

Even though we only know each other for 18 days, but we are like a big family, or siblings...

I'm lucky, to meet these great friends...

We get close to each other very fast, because we sleep, eat, play, emo, complain, shit, pee, bath, chat, or whatever together everyday!

For me, ns is like a trip with friends <3

I DONT THINK if there is a maid helping me all the time, do all housework for me, i can hide under the blanket with aircond, not to get any sun or tan, dont have to march, do hard activities etc WILL BE BETTER!

This is a different kind of living style, which we cant experience in our house...

I seriously learned a lot of things there, i dont think it's a wasting of time

I do encourage people who kena to attend, just 2-3 months time, you wont do any better if you absent ;)

Okay, that's all for my NS story first, will be continue next time ;)

2012 Birthday

2012-01-15T03:54:00.003+08:00

Oh my goodness

I thought my 2012 birthday in ns will be the most kesian birthday on earth, as usually people who born early like me, get into a new envirionment, nothing special will happen, because we are still not close to each other...like my form 1 birthday, i dont think i even had any presents lol

But, what had happened just now, was a surprise! The greatest birthday surprise ever in my life, which 26 of my dorm-mates participated in it....awww

I feel like crying, as i didnt expect anything...it was too out of a sudden. O.O
Anyway, i actually ruined the original plan, due to my sleepiness XP

As usual, we went tokong today. Every buddhist have to visit temple on Saturday. Did volunteer work for the whole day, stuffs and stuffs until i was extremely tired. Until when dorm lights off at 11pm, i saw everyone was getting to sleep, then i slept also at 11.20pm... I cant even wait more 40 minites to countdown and wish myself a happy birthday TT . I was really toooo tired.

Suddenly, someone shook me. I openned my eyes. What i saw was 26 pairs of eyes crowded beside my bed and a few torchlights flashing their faces.

Then, they started to sing birthday song, and i tried to pull myself up from lying on the bed. I took a glance at my clock, it was 12am! Then, they gave me the famous blueberry bread sold in the canteen, pretended it as a cake LOL! I made a wish, and blew off the 'torchlight' XD

Everyone took turns to hug me, especially Suk Chyi the organizer, huggged me so hard until i hardly breathe... I seriously appreciate this la baby... *touched max*

She actually even curi curi bought 27 packs of packet soft drinks, hide in her bed for everyone of us to celebrate tomorrow....Damn chun la you, how can u did this successfully without me knowing??

Oh my gosh...
Thank you so much for an unexpected birthday surprise. I love you guys.. Dorm 6 rocks! <3

Ns

2012-01-08T20:35:00.000+08:00

Countdown for 64 days, included cny holidays

i have a depress feeling

i like life here, i dont feel like looking forward to the day we leave

i hope spm result dont come out so fast, dont before 17th

aihz, what can i do is enjoy every tidbits here to the max ;)

Bye bloggie, bye everyone!

2012-01-01T03:49:00.004+08:00

Few years ago- What is ns?

Last year- Your brother got kena ns ar?

Few months before spm- Will i kena ns ar?

Month before spm- Busy checking whether i kena, i kena!

Spm- When will i kena? where is it ar?

After spm- omg! the date and place finally announced

Few days ago- Busy buying ns stuff, do market research

FINALLY,

the day i have been waiting for so long....finally arrived!

and it is TOMORROW! (ohmygawd i couldnt believe)

As usual, everyone is nagging, or in a better saying- concerning me, about what should/shouldnt do in the camp

Dad didnt say much, just told me something that made me felt guilty ><

He said, there is someone who stays in a house with 9 people sharing a toilet.

While, there is someone who stay in a house with 3 toilets to let you choose anytime, which is ME.

So, this national service will definitely train me hard. The buku panduan even asked me to bring pakaian mandi, and what da hell is that? Something you should wear when u bath? Who da hell will wear something when she is bathing??

So, according to the seniors, we will all be bathing together in the toilet with a big pool of water, share water and we can see each other! Thats why we need a something like pakaian mandi -.-

But make sense also, who will prepare a door for soldier during a war? haha

So...goodbye to my lovely self-owned toilet, goodbye to my favorite Lavender family

I cant see/use u all for a month :(

My friend went ns today, what she did was sleep and eat only, and most of her roommate are malays and indians, she hardly make new friends ;"( So, until 4th Jan only start the schedule...really so tragedy? Tomorrow i'll know..haha

Yesterday when i looked at Puan Tan's son (school teacher used to teach me sejarah during form 1), i think she wont expect one day i will teach her son Wushu...lolz She has 3 sons, oldest one level 3, youngest son level 1, while the 2nd son is the most geng one, join the advance class, which i dont have qualification to teach HAHA I still remember she said kk looks like her youngest son, but i think kk is thinner XP

So, i got the salary and dad immediately suggested a treat from me, our last supper before CNY :")

Nothing much else to say, this probably will be my last post before CNY =/

I'll try to be tough no matter what happen tomorrow onwards, goodbye =)

倒数1天！再见2011!

2012-01-01T02:04:00.005+08:00

Since i have shouted so hard for Lagoon, i have no sound to shout to my class today =/ (Last day of teaching before ns!)

So damn tired after my class, i some more still sleeping when my friend reached my house...

Then, i fetched her to Boulevard for countdown, my last time fetching her! (Everyone should be a driver after my ns XD)

We have our dinner first, she treated me as my farewell dinner HAHA

Boulevard is a new place for young people who stay at Puchong, there consist of many bars, restaurants etc

Due to New Year Eve, they even have band there, and some street performance

Then, while considering which place to drink, we sat beside the fountain

suddenly, 3 guys coming towards us, one with a deck of cards on his hand, another one with a video cam recording us!

After he presented himself, we knew that he is a Magician!

He performed many magics for us, and i guessed the video man was recording our "shock face" HAHA

Some magics i was very familiar with, because i played before and own the tools, so i know the tricks...then i just pretended like "Wow, geng wor..." LOL

but of course, his skill is good, he is a professional performer for magic

This is the first time i see a live magic show about burning the tissue paper into a coin, then when he rubbed the coin, the coin became a BIG coin with a palm size, like so impossible!

Then, he showed us a diamond 6 card...he shook the card infront of us, what i saw was the 6 diamonds slowly became 8 diamonds! Like the diamonds can move around on the card! LOL

Okay larh, the most CHUN magic is I CAN BEND A COIN! HAHAHA

The magician asked: who is more stronger? my friend pointed to me, so he asked a 20cent from my friend, then he placed the 20cent coin into my hand and asked me to close my fingers into fist, and grabbed it with all my strength, then he blew my hand. When i reopened my fingers, the 20cent coin became...

LOL damn zha dou -.- Then he gave us this coin as a present...haha

So i dont know if this is a tool or what, since when he changed his tool with my friend's real 20cent, and i really salute his live magic show! haha

After the magic show, felt so happy, and we went into Geographer! A bar with band

A lot of people drinking and waiting for countdown there...

So as we ;D

The music and singing were loud, damn high!

Then we ordered beer and started to camwhore XD

After a few sip, we became high already! And time was nearer to countdown!

My friends, too many people there that's why the boys have to bear with "no chairs" ;P

When we started to countdown, snow was dropping on our head! haha

They are actually organic snow prepared by Geographer that came out from some machine, so the whole bar was like winter session ;D So naise and romantic HAHAHA

Later on, fireworks started! So many police cars around to maintain the public order...

After the countdown, i met so many buddies, if i didnt come out, i would not know they came out "wet" also XD

most shocking is i met someone that make me freaking excited, guess who?

It was Zhen Tao! (Oh Mai Gawddd!!!)

He looked super handsome with his new hair cut!

He shook my hand with wishes, and we took a photo <3

Then we chat, only know we actually live in the same area -.-

For a clear photo of his mohawk, dah dah!

Hehe

After that, i have supper with friends before going home, the main purpose is to let my face to cool down, if not my mum would know i took alcohol ;P

So, the long 2011 has finally passed! I had actually prepared a long conclusion post for 2011, but my mind suddenly blank now, nothing much to conclude about 2011...so...STOP 2011!

Because it's 2012 now! Muahahahahhahahaha A brand new year which i have been waiting for so long!

But, im really grateful to my friends who treat me as a real friend throughout this 2011, i'll mark them all inside my heart =)

THANKS Wong Ling, Juin Yi, KK, Wei for my birthday pressie, i'll bring along to ns and open them on the real day 'D

倒数2天！

2011-12-31T01:21:00.003+08:00

本来今天回到来累死，但爸妈还是硬拉我出去提早庆祝生日

酒是免不了的，所以现在在半清醒状态下，1.48am, 失眠了 XD

还是更新一下吧！

妈送我的超可爱愤怒鸟蛋糕！

第一次和那么多男生出去一整天，累死！

大概是8+1，因为其中一个半场才到

所以一共9个人（7男2女）

相隔2年，终于又去Asia most attractive place- Lagoon （他们写的）LOL

上次是和一堆女生去，这次和一堆男生去

老实说，我觉得跟男生去比较好玩，或许是因为他们比较贪玩、大胆

而且这次一起去的男生也不错，也算成熟和gentlemen

我觉得他们挺照顾女生，不像一些没有责任感的男生 =(

和他们一起玩也很开心下 ;)

一开始只有2个女生去，我觉得有点不自在

可后来我发觉今天这种配合是最好的 =D

大概8个人去就够了，如果一大堆人去会很麻烦，很乱

玩什么又得分几轮来玩，然后意见又多，乱乱乱！

如果换成2个男的7个女的，我现在想都觉得超恐怖 =o

如果起初整班人都去，那或许又是另一番体会吧，

但人多，就不会玩得这么尽兴了！

所以今天的配合很好啊！如果有下次，我也希望照旧！

现在我的腿是超超超累的，好像肌肉都萎缩了哈哈！

走了这么多，在水里跑了这么多，当然累咯……

没想到最厉害抓人的是帅帅马来人Faris，他的鳄鱼功真劲！

他身材也很好啊，可以排第二 =D

第一当然是马啦，胸肌练到那么大，还整天说没有练 -.-

今天一游是难忘的 =)

回家以后都时不时回想刚才的情景

我非常珍惜今天，相信以后大家都有另一半了，很难再这样一起疯了

当然少不了谢谢我的西瓜，今天她是最伟大的啦！i <3 u

今天我很开心！！！

2011-12-30T21:10:00.001+08:00

Happy.

Tired.

Appreciate.

Only 3 things i can thing of now...charge battery first...nights!

倒数3天！

2011-12-30T00:52:00.002+08:00

“准备！脚合起来，拳头握紧放在腰”

这就是我平时教课的情形, 那个班我负责这几个冬瓜

看见他们在后面坐着开party，肯定要中我骂了！！

“马步跟我做低一点！！”

这不是我平时教的分行，只是那两天我被派去那边帮忙

那边有印度学生，必须用英文教！！*惨

我有时在想，你来学华人的东西，当然要懂华语先 *宗族歧视

但又想，难得他们来学华人的东西，我应该迁就他们哈哈

今天是临走之前最后一堂训练班，所有人都有来！我很开心 =）

然后就2个月半不能练了

我从来没有试过离开武馆这么久，离开家这么久……

好了，明天是最后一次和我的朋友们去玩了，必须是难忘的！

睡觉先！

28 Dec 2011 Wed

2011-12-28T18:16:00.004+08:00

Awesome day,!

Due to some obstacles, we finally get to meet each other after 3 years!

My primary best friend, Pei Chi <3

We watched a World-Most-Sampat-Movie- The Muppets
damn, stupid movie ever !@#$%/

I hope our friendship can last long, till forever =D

2011-12-28T00:44:00.001+08:00

Emo night, please leave me alone.

2012 come on!

2011-12-26T22:39:00.002+08:00

Stupid.

This is the 3rd time i retype this post! Why phonie you treat me like that??!!

Make me type different things in every post >(

Anyway, 5 more days to end of this Long, Ugly 2011

Nothing is great about 2011, except for my medals

I hope i can forget every tidbits about 2011

I hope i can never bring anything from this 17years to the brand new hopeful 2012

"What will you do

if you were me

yea

i want your answer"

At last, i didnt give you the real answer on time

In a relationship, every second of chance is important

if you lost it, you will regret for life

and #foreveralone

LOL -.-

And im not gonna bring this away to 2012 Uhh

Okay not more negative stuff Casey! Lets talk about happy stuff

6 more days to the day i have been looking forward to!

(i always like to countdown :P)

Compared to those who go study overseas, what is 3 months?

it's just like an appetizer for them, but the main course for me -.-

Suddenly lack of words to type, okay till here then

bye

Christmas eve 2011

2011-12-25T23:50:00.006+08:00

圣诞前夕，我竟敢7.30pm去Pyramid (超自信的XD)

连那条驾上停车场的路（天桥）都停满车，我不晓得那些人是怎样走路上去的O.O

我们的车塞着进，动都不能动，但很幸运的，我隔壁泊好的车子竟然要走，所以那位子非我莫属啦！=D

然后我们也很大胆地，在圣诞前夕8点（晚餐时间正）的时候去吃Sushi Zanmai

排队大概花了45分钟，终于到我们了！

啊，很不错的运气！

如果有3份圣诞礼物给你选，大的、长的、小的，而里面只有一份礼物是真的，你会选哪个？

肯定是大的吧？所以我自以为是地 “特地不要选大的”，因为我知道你一定不会在所有人都会选的礼物里放礼物 XD

结果，我选了长的，还信心十足以为里面肯定是笔或牙刷之类的

很明显，我错了……XD

这是我收过有史以来最 “厉害” 的圣诞礼物！

然后我们就去买酒, 本来要买liquor/vodka, 怎知酒廊9点就关了！

经过重重波折终于买了1瓶vodka、 2瓶carlsberg gold、 1瓶sprite、1瓶coke

过后我们就去取车回家，我的车停在 CP2 （和离开同一层）

但，从退车到真正还票离开这短短5分钟的路程，我们大概花了1个小时吧？！

从来没有试过在停车场里塞得那么厉害！

如果你不够凶狠，人太大方一直让别人过，那就慢慢等吧！哈哈哈哈！

12点，终于回到家了……圣诞节快乐！

匆匆忙忙准备了 “武装”, 我们就躲在房间里喝咯！

我先喝了一杯牛奶，不懂听谁说比较不容易醉 :P

谁知道喝了几杯vodka（40% 酒精）, 全身红到像大红花，简直想倒下去算了 -.-

我平时喝的都是4-5%，这次突然40%，我真的会lam!

我已经撑不住了，还说要玩！XD 我记得是3.30am, 我开了那瓶啤酒(5.5%)

那是我最喜欢的啤酒，可是我都没办法喝完它，睡着了

然后看一点戏，已经6.40am

当时我已经要倒了，还不让我睡！还叫我调1个小时闹钟起来再看戏 LOL

当然，是没有起到，睡到像猪这样，10点才起身

没想到我的2011圣诞前夕就是这样昏昏迷迷地度过！恐怕只剩下7晚可以喝酒 T__T

我第一次喝酒红到这种程度，这第一次，给你了啦！XP

原本隔天说要带你去吃的Snowflakes 就是这样的，

那个红色的东西是个会震动的机器，当你点了你的冰，他们会给你这个东西

然后你的冰弄好后，它会振动一下，意思是叫你去拿你的冰！

今日一别，不知何时何日可以再这样尽情地喝……

2011-12-23T23:38:00.002+08:00

这是马六甲手工香皂专卖店里引人注目的香皂！ <3

每一个我都很喜欢，可惜我没$把它们通通带回家 T_____T

买了几个送给朋友，蓦然回首，才发现原来我自己一个也没有 XD

这马六甲之旅算是我的生日礼物了（妈说的）哈哈！

才3天我俩花了600块！我都记录下来以备以后我也去背包旅行有点预算……

我们住的酒店不是酒店，而是客栈！

第一晚：Hoya Jonker Guesthouse (rm45 w/o air cond)

第二晚：Voyage Cottage Lodge (rm58 w/ air cond)

我们把车子停在停车场，就走了3天2夜！脚都蹶了 :"(

最开心的是：我们吃了很多很多好吃的，大部分$都花在吃的 =D

最讨厌的是：不认识路，走了很多冤枉路！每一样事情我都得自己处理，才发现大人原来不好当 TT 以前旅行实在太享受了，凡事父母都做好！

如果以前我妈有机会向自己的梦想发展，那今天她会是个很不一样的人……

（纯粹发表感慨心声）

她到处拍了很多照片，我也没有能力把它们都分享出来……

1）太多照片

2）电脑太慢

时间都不早了，明天还得教课 =)

Puteri gym 我回来啦！

2011-12-22T23:41:00.006+08:00

3 days 2 nights Malacca trip + rushing home to pray for Dong Zhi + 2 hrs Wushu training

but....NO MATTER HOW TIRED AM I, i wont forget you....

my babe Jye Sze XD (even though im not ur babe T______T)

Finally, ur big day arrives! omg left 5 more minutes but i have lots to type...!

Okay okay, so lets say something about today's birthday girl

(Btw now is officially 12am T_____T and i still havent typed finish!)

She likes to SS, but her skill damn good weih! See! Cute people(me and wl) pun jadi oku LMAO

Even not she SS, she will also make me oku T_______T HAHAHA

But, she is always so pretty in my heart <3 (melts* haha!)

I have no idea why my house internet so laussyyy, if not i can upload more pictures :/

Cant upload, still can copy! hehe

Anyway, you look kiut in this leh, next time take picture with me must do this! lmao

You are gonna study right after i leave, that's what i meant 各奔东西...

but you MUST give me a call, or reply my message :D

生日快乐！

再老土也得说，希望你身体健康、名列前茅、青春美丽、心想事成、事事顺利、桃花运猛、早生贵子 :P

I <3 U

我要追梦！

2011-12-18T00:48:00.001+08:00

喝了很多酒，超级多话讲
跟父母聊了很多，好像若不喝酒他们都没法了解我
很他们聊了整晚，才懂他们其实认识我还不如一个陌生人
他们以为我是个很乐观的人，生活得无忧无虑，正享受着童年呢…
他们根本不懂我起了多少次轻生的念头
他们问我，我到底有什么烦恼，我简直一言难尽

聊回以前，原来我已经18岁了
“人生最残酷的就是每个人只能年轻一次”

我这辈子最后悔+遗憾的是，
我没什么向游泳发展 (这可是我父母唯一称赞我的地方)，很可惜的…我没认真栽培自己在这方面…如果当初我认真栽培自己，今天我就是个很不一样的我…
1)身材好
2)体能好
3)高
4)拿很多奖
5)马拉松跑第一名
6)练武不用这么辛苦
7)对我现在的目标超级有帮助

第二遗憾，没学杂技、体操、羽毛球、篮球

人生往往没这么多机会，庆幸的是我还有手有脚，将来还可以为我的遗憾画上完美的句号…！

2011-12-17T18:18:00.001+08:00

养不教，父之过；教不严，师之惰！

Ohmyladygaga!
I finally understand this 'idiom',
who created this huh? I salute you!

Today is the first day i teach in damai gym,
''OMG'' (hitting forehead) is what i did throughout the whole class

The students in damai gym are sooo...haihz TERUK compared to my students in puteri gym
They are like sakai! or i can say chimpanzee lol
it's all the teacher's fault who incharge of the gym
he can do good wushu, just that he is not strict in teaching
Bagaimana acuan begitu kuihnya, relax-type teacher will produce students like this zz
I hope i'll not become like them

Just 1 class i can vomit blood, tomorrow im going to teach 3 classes, i swallow blood suan liao -.-

How are they going to take exam?? adui

Mummy keep saying, ''you are just guru ganti what for you so gek hei?''

Ya i know im just teaching 2 days in this gym but i really hope i can do something to improve this

Haihz, same to me, i cant say my result is depanding on myself because im studying the same syllabus with others, sometimes, choose a qualified school is very important..

Rumours

2011-12-16T19:57:00.002+08:00

Recently i found out that most of the peoples on earth are just talking with irresponsible
meaning, they just talk whatever they know, but not sure whether it's true or not
which called rumours

This habit just happens on every stage of human, where the expert is old citizens
I cant even believe in whatever which comes out from my popo's mouth,
there are totally wrong information! Doesnt make sense + added self-created stories

Where recently i found myself being like that too, i mean, im always like that but only realized myself recently

I didnt make sure whether the news is right or wrong, i just spread
like i heard that form6 intake is September, i would just tell anyone who asked me about that

Until yesterday i went a secondary school, the teacher in-charged of form 6 told me it is April, just after my NS
i cant say this is confirmed, but i can only trust teacher

Yea, so the point is, most of the people i know, they have decided many things, thought of many decisions, hit their chest and said they will further their studies in bla bla colleges, ENDED UP go form 6
ridiculous huh? lol

Yea of course studying in college is so much better than form 6, but do they think of other issues?
They will only realize that when they are going to pay

Before visiting so many colleges, i would never know so much about that, what i know is what i heard from the rumours, from their mouth, which is not-confirmed-news

Maybe i said i will go form 6, but ended up i will take up foundation..so funny
before SPM, i didnt know wth about a-levels and foundation, then i have made my decision to go form 6
i was just listening to their rumours, even professional will tell untrue news
example, HELP told me they have only one intake, do you believe?

So as a conclusion, what am i talking actually?
I guess im just trying to say, Do not simply listen to rumours and make quick decision before knowing the truth

-Purely my own opinion- ;)

2011-12-16T01:37:00.000+08:00

Fui
i seriously xin dan already
i have told myself to forget about you so many times
finally i have graduade, i can totally leave you
i dont need to see your face anymore
i dont need to suffer already
i love you so much last time is because i actually only love the You that i imagined
when i really know much about you, i couldnt love you anymore
fui 99
you disappoint me again and again
if you are not that pretty in my heart i would just forget about you earlier
yes, you are a girl

a girl who i care for so much, since 3 years ago
a girl who didnt even appreciate what i did

it's actually not your fault at all
is me who dumb

conclusion is, today you hurt me again
thats all kthxbai

2011-12-16T00:18:00.000+08:00

She's so beautiful, i just love her so much
one-sight love just happened between us
her smile, keep appearing in my mind
i feel like studying in UCTI because of her
Awwwwwww
Im keep persuading myself to take up media marketing, so i get the chance to see her...
just one sight is enough

She brought me to visit the whole college today
from 4th to ground floor
i didnt appreciate the time being with her though
i regreted, i should have ask for her fb

The same regret happened 5 yrs later, which is the today
I just lost contact with a girl which studied in Catholic when i was in std 6
I couldn't find her, anymore
I couldn't find ms.ucti anymore T___T

She just looked like Sui Tang, Taiwanese
Omgawdd i couldn't forget about her smile
her waist, so perfect

Haihz
I should be brave
I hate myself, 2pid lesbo

2011-12-14T20:51:00.002+08:00

在别人的眼里，无论是陌生人的，还是熟人的，
im just a piece of shizz
一个没有了父母就活不了的宝贝千金

这可是我最讨厌的形象！

我知道每个独生子都会挂上“掌上明珠”的头衔，但我很努力地摆脱和这种扯上关系，
我不想成为烂泥扶不上墙壁的败家子。

很失败地，我在父母心里往往都是被宠惯的孩子，没有了父母就活不了

今天到了UCSI大学，被一位senior骂醒了

原来我只是一个没有了父母就活不下去的千金

原来我除了上网，看戏，我就是比二氧化碳更没有用的东西
我只会花父母的钱
我就只会花父母的钱

我什么都不会，我什么都不懂
我就只会等父母帮我解决问题

我就是没有了父母就活不了的东西

我就是饭来张口衣来伸手的东西

我除了那几个烂鬼家务，我就什么也不会做

我以为自己很厉害，其实我就是没有了父母就活不了的东西

我连自己想读什么也不懂
我就是连试也不考好好来

我就只会花父母的钱

30千很容易赚？我以为
我就是太幸运了，我简直就是为赋新词强说愁

什么事情都有父母为我撑着

在所有人眼里我就是个没有父母就活不了的烂人
我就是个什么也不用愁的烂人
我要读什么，我父母都会为我准备
我根本不用为钱烦恼，我就只会花花花

我就只会玩

有人还跟我说：你爸这么有钱，你想去哪个国家读书都可以，整个地球任你选
joke of the year
还有什么比这个更好笑的？

对啊，这就是我在所有人心里的印象，我最排斥的印象

我知道无论我怎样，我就是个没有了父母就活不下去的人
我不想再去玩了，我听够了这些诋毁我的话

很烦吧，每次都看同一类的文章
对，我也很烦
愤世嫉俗

2011-12-13T22:53:00.002+08:00

I started to miss the kids
and feel like owning one by myself LOL
i found that i only like children in boy, gosh i think i will treat my son better than my daughter
somehow i hope i wont have a daughter forever, if i have any, i'll throw it away LMAO
and im pity for those who own 4 daughters, omg if that ever happens on me ><"

Boys are seriously cutter than girls when they are young, they are more active and 讨人喜爱

and boys are easier to take care, unlike girls, have to give extra care on them
example, tie their hair, buy bra for them, care for their menstrual cycle, 担心她们的安全 etc

okay it's too early to talk about this, and i dont hope to pregnant too, can i just dig my secondary oocyte out to a surrogate mother?
i scared my abs will all gone off :"(

beer and chocolate, gosh my belly is appearing

should start my workout tomorrow!

2011-12-12T11:45:00.002+08:00

Spm 考华作我就应该选第五题来写，
家有一老，如有一宝，才怪！

那我肯定point多到要拿extra test pad来写
我亲爱的婆婆在我家住了1星期，你忍我我忍你，忍不住了就把她送去舅舅家
在舅舅家住了1星期，忍无可忍了终于昨天我和妈特地载她回Kampar

跟老人家住在一起，讲话或沉默都是罪
结果大家都有罪
她们就视自己为太后，横霸整个后宫
因为她们的观念就是：是非是人情，没有是非就没有人情

讲话讲到没话讲的时候，什么狗屁垃圾都讲得出口，完全没有经过大脑

如果我写第五题，我的结尾会是这样：

因此，我决定60岁大寿那天把财产全部分给儿女孙子，然后在酒里下药作成意外中毒的假象。反正都退休了，也没遗憾了。这样，我就不用受那么多苦，不用经历病痛的折磨，不用进出医院，不用花冤枉钱，不用为下一代带来麻烦。但死之前我会先签器官捐献同意书，把所有有用的器官全捐出去，反正我60岁都还健全，器官应该还没坏。我觉得这想法蛮有意义，对我对下一代都好。

写完了，觉得有点无聊 ==

算了，家家有本难念的经，虽然我婆婆很坏蛋，我还是会孝顺她吧……

2011-12-10T17:50:00.002+08:00

今天3个学生被我训练到呕，顿时想起当年的我……
可是今天他们跑8圈就呕了，想当年我们可是跑12圈 O.O

看来他们的体能还需多加训练，好吧来日方长怕什么
以后训练出来的身体不是我的，是你们的。我时常跟他们说
所以我在体能训练很严格，管你讨厌我还是什么

做老师的，不站到脚痛都喊到喉咙痛，不喊到喉咙痛都渴到嘴巴干
挺可怜的
加上昨天溜冰的水泡，明天我跟你拼了！累死我的脚算了!

就这样，充电先……

2011-12-10T00:24:00.002+08:00

Feel a kind of failure
i know it's not time to say depressive words
but im just bored to death uhh

Idk why i will always blame everything to my period
like im tired, i cant do vigorous activities, i cant be flexible
all blame to period!

but after the 4 days, im still standing at the same place
yuan di ta bu!

Yes im just too enjoy with my current life
i dont have the motivation to do anything

I look down on myself, purely 18 years old (37 days more),
and im already tired of my dreams
oh, i have nothing else to say

Please la Wong Yuen Theng please look at ur name even though i know you hate it
Please laaa stop being like a shitz
I can do it, is just i want or not, obviously i dont want thats why im so shitty

I cant even do well, just anything ordered by dad
i know im a suck daughter in his heart
i also very hate people with low productivity, they just cant do things well
when i ask you to do something, of course you must settle it yourself, if you need my help in the end why am i giving you the task in the first place? i can even do it by myself if you cant settle for me
know what i mean? if dont know it's okay

for example: if i ask you to pick an apple from an apple tree, i dont care how u gonna collect it, fly or jump, as long as you get an apple for me
if at last you still tell me you are not able to climb or what, and asking me how to pick the apple, please la if i have to do it myself why am i asking you to do at first?

okay shitty example -.-

yea this is referring to me
thats me infront of my dad
he can do everything by his own, but he just ordered me for some simple task

okay i know what to do

let me draw a calander

12 13 14 15 16 17 18
19 20 21 22 23 24 25
26 27 28 29 30 31 1

precious 3 weeks

I know what to do, just do it Casey

2011-12-09T19:13:00.001+08:00

Saw 3 friends in the ice rink
Saw 6 friends outside the ice rink

haha
everyone just hanging out

anyway, thanks =)

-countdown 23 days-

黎明无限好

2011-12-09T02:05:00.004+08:00

当你看到这封信的时候，我或许已经……还没睡醒XD
（希望你不会偷偷起来上网）

所谓三日不见，如三秋兮
三天可以是很快过，也可以是很难熬
记得以前你去补习单单那三个小时，那一声不响的离开，
我已经感觉浑身不自在，心跳加速，不，是心跳已止

希望你这一程，可以帮助你忘掉烦恼，抛开这17年，
让该留的留，该去的去

人生的起起落落，朋友可以为你分享，
可是有些事情还是必须得自己处理，朋友也只能爱莫能助，
也只能在睡前为你祈祷

钢琴上的黑白键，有如人生的好与坏
可是必须有它们的存在，美妙的曲子才能弹得出来
必须有好有坏，这才叫人生
（虽然我不会弹）

希望你尽情地享受，疯狂吧！
这三天别眷恋这里了

可在疯狂时，别忘了照顾自己
记得尽量早睡，多喝点水
别太忘我，注意下身边，
所谓安而不忘危，存而不忘亡，治而不忘乱

好吧我也不啰唆了
晚安/早安

等你回来 :)

2011-12-08T17:13:00.001+08:00

You made me so afraid of Kenji now
not now, but since June
im always avoid from contacting with anything about Kenji
i feel like making all my fav photos, songs of him into pieces

Why am i so cui ruo? why cant i get over for it?

I feel so hurt when listening to his song
i even feel like droping my tears, again

Almost 6 months, ive sick for almost half a year

When im about to forget you, why are you disturbing me again?

I seriously dont know why am i so cui ruo
if i ever have any stories with you, i cant imagine how many tears more i have to drop

I know time is the best medicine
I'll never have a chance to meet you again
I'll sew my heart back in this 90 days

Puuuhhhhllleeaaassseee dont,
dont hurt me again in this 24 days
thank you.

2011-12-08T16:07:00.003+08:00

My auntie came late for 10 days, i think she has not being late for quite a long time

LOL

Guess what? Spm just finished, she straight comes! lmao

but thank God she did not annoy me during the whole month

Am i really that stress? Should be no, maybe just a little

Aihs, but i thought i can drink tonight.....

Suddenly feel like having a kid, like wanted to go sperm bank and buy a million of sperms to fertilize myself now

LMAO im insane .__.

but please dont let me own a twins, i will be crazy uhhh

Okies still a long way to go ;)

终于又过了另一个阶段

2011-12-07T21:42:00.004+08:00

这可真是N年前所期待的日子，历史性的日子

什么 “考完试过后……” 的事情，今天都可以正式去做了

没有想象中兴奋，我就是这样，往往达到目标后都没有预期的兴奋

这是不是苦尽甘来后，所失去的喜悦？或更可说是麻木

今天所要写的东西，我已经在考试作文里写完，我也懒惰重复

哈哈

就这样吧 :)

2011-12-05T18:05:00.003+08:00

Pharkkkk!

Why the student look so alike with him???

Idk idk

Idk if i will treat him with tindakan yang berat sebelah

I only know everytime when i see him, i will think of him

When he looks at me, i will skip away from his sight

Arrhh

If it is end, end please

why end and dont want end?

Why come and disturb me again?

When the matches is dim, why make some wind on it?

Why wanna glow it back?

When the fire is created again, it will hurt someone again!

Please bear with my broken english, i really dont know what else to say, to do

Please dont hurt me again, please dont give me fake hope again

Im just too brittle to be hurt

2011-12-05T11:37:00.003+08:00

没想到我在学生面前的脸比平时还黑几倍

平时已经被人讲得面无表情、冷酷无情、像冰山、自闭症、麻木症

很多老人家都跟我妈说：你女儿越大越不讲话，是不是有自闭症啊？

lolwtf

总之，这是自然反应

在学生面前也必须有点威严

在武馆完全不能用爱的教育

不可能跟学生说：小明，你的拳打错了，要打好好来哦～

前天我还骂那学生：你再跟我打错，我一棍扫下去！！这是功夫，不是跳舞！你有看过李小龙这样软的吗？怎样打敌人？！！

lol 想必我又会是另一个Pn. Ung

其实一位好老师，就是懂得尊重，懂得如何让学生更容易明白，懂得培养学生的兴趣，懂得解答学生的问题，懂得在适当的时候施硬施软

而并不是只有高学历就够了

如果Horobin（马来西亚南拳冠军）不会教，那他也不一定是位好老师

相反的，如果前空翻也不会做的老师，而他懂得怎样让他的学生做，他就是好老师

虽然教师这角色永远都是坏人，不会被珍惜

但他就是有这使命培育精英

好老师和坏老师的差别就是两个字：尊重

只有为人师者才会明白教师的苦衷

“学生们，我知道你们会很讨厌我，但十年过后，你们就会知道我的好意”

相信这都是所有教师的心声

我现在第一个目标就是：希望这个世界因为有我的存在而有一点点的改变，而这个世界就是武馆 LOL

（采自于那些年，我们一起追的女孩）

爸刚刚跟妈说: 早知道不要给她考华语，因为华语拿不到A

=="""""""

我听了很火，觉得我怎么会有这种无知的爸爸

为了那死人 A 而考试？

Pleaseee laaaaa 好像我每一科会拿 A??

三个月后我拿着10个G回来的话，就不用活了！！

无知！！！

Ihatechiu

2011-12-04T23:02:00.002+08:00

PHARKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

OFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Stupid bugger.

First class 3/12/11

2011-12-02T22:12:00.002+08:00

What image should i present myself in the first class?
Puan Loy or Puan Ung?
This has been a very difficult question bugging in my mind for a period

Okies this Sunday will be my exam
everyday raining, how to train?
okay i know this is pure excuses -.-

Hmm L.I.F.E (Life Isnt Fking Easy)
LOL

Have some relationship problems zz
How should i cope with them?

I hate old ladies, my popo stayed at my house for almost a week already

How should i take extra-concern as a.....some thing to be appreciated?
huh

Putrajaya, sooo near
Is a good news for others but not for me

I have been looking forward for a totally escape,
not like this prison's lifestyle

Okay im just too not appreciative

I feel smelly now, whole mouth full of durian smell *yucks*
i ate 2 pieces of durian, fat dieee meee

Seriously nothing to crap already, bye

2011-12-01T17:57:00.001+08:00

除了哭，我不知道我还能怎样
我很辛苦
你可以帮我吗？帮我带离这个世界

我知道能生存其实很好，能带给地球贡献
可我还不是那么伟大

或许生存就可以享受世界，可受的痛苦往往比什么都还要多

我真的很天真
我往往跟着别人的生活方式走
可其实我太高估自己的权利

终于，天助我也，我即将要离开
只是看似我无法彻底地离开
请放开我吧，既然弄我死是你的爱好，为什么还这么执着绑住我？

我知道外人看得我很幼稚，一点都无法体谅别人

昨天和佳怡出了一整天
她的确是一位值得我非常珍惜的朋友
聊了很多，她也有她的烦恼

最后，我以一声长长的叹气作为结尾

2011-11-29T21:16:00.000+08:00

I seriously dont know how to be a human. Im so tired, im so fed up. I disappoint everyone, my friends. Im ffk king, thats my greatest talent, and i know it. I always blame my problems to my friends, i will only ruin their mood, and they are tired of consoling me childish queen. I know parents are trying to protect us, i know it and i appreciate it, but sometimes over-protecting, it made the situation worst, which i do not appreciate it. I wonder do i have my own privacy? answer is definitely no. If i argue for that, a war will begin again, i need to avoid that, so i have to shut my mouth up and endure everything. I know parents is the God of mine, everything i have to listen to them, who cares if i cry in my pillow? Yea, to avoid any arguement, what i have to do is just shut up, bear with everything, in my heart without revealing, thats it, sorry everyone that i have brought troublesome, annoyness or disappointment to you, im really sorry.

2011-11-29T16:36:00.002+08:00

Phark!!!

I hatechiu ishhh

idontwanttoseeyourfaceanymorefaktard

idontwanttolistentoyourvoiceanymore

idontneedyouinmylife

stop rawhhhingggg

iseriouslyfeelsouncomfortable

idontlikethatenvironment

pleasefarkofffrommylife

ihatechiuuuuuu

wadafarkkkkkk

getlostlabugger

wedifferentstandardokayidontwantstuckmyselfintoit

iseriouslypikkchikkktolistentoyourvoice

iminsanelololololololololllll

ijustflunkmychemistrycongratzclapsss

twomoredaystostayathisschool

okayiwannaleavehereasapplease

isweariwillleaveyouiswear

iswearthereisnomorelasttime

nolasttimebecauseiwontgiveachance

pleasegoawayyoubugger

ihatechiu

okay the above alien words is not meant to be read by human so please give up on reading

kthxbai

2011-11-29T00:54:00.001+08:00

I just wanna leave here
as soon as possible

社会的退步

2011-11-27T01:01:00.002+08:00

以前我一直有一种坏习惯，而那种坏习惯很多人也有，只是像我一样，常常犯，不以为然。

那种坏习惯可以常常发生，天天发生，到处发生。

而且那种坏习惯，犯的人会很开心，而身边的人却会很失落。

到底是什么？其实就是玩电话。

以前在外面吃饭的时候，等候的时候，在车上的时候，

我都很习惯玩电话，甚至妈妈跟我聊天时，我耳朵在听，眼睛其实在看电话。

尤其是在车上，驾车的是妈妈，我就是从上车玩到下车。

可是，其实身边的人不好受。

以前我这样做的时候根本没发觉有什么不妥，直到我亲身体验这种感觉。

不知道其他人是否与我有相同的感受，那种被冷落，忽略的感觉，其实真的很很很难受。

尤其是，一起吃饭和驾车的时候，特别特别不舒服。

即使驾车的时候，乘客没事情做会拿电话出来玩，我虽说是驾车的，但还是不希望乘客一直玩电话…… lol 可能这听起来很滑稽，可是这就是那种感觉……

我觉得，如果一起吃饭得手不离机，那你自己一个人吃吧，这样忽略对方，一起吃也没意思。

我知道现代人手不离机是一种习惯，潮流，

一种解闷的好方法，或更可说是一种必须的动作

我说出来，其实没有在怪我身边的人，反正我以前也是这样对别人……

可是我亲身经历了很久，现在除了独自一人，我也不会玩电话了

你每次乐在其中时可以不理会别人的感受，同样的，以后别人也可以这样以牙还牙

Bugger of the year

2011-11-25T17:20:00.003+08:00

Waddaaapharkkkkk

Pik chik nya!

Today the weather is sooo hot and yet i have to do this kind of thing

Dad packed a few boxes of CCTV and some other stuff,

which their similarity is they are made of metal

Dad wanted to throw them but he asked me to sell them instead of wasting them

So, today i waved my hand to the 'old newspaper' guy, he reached my house

He brought his trolley in, he thought i was selling newspaper

Then i asked whether he would buy metals?

Dad say the amount at least can sell for 20 bucks

Then the stupid fktard bugger go and count + weigh the CCTVs,

said : here 10 bucks

I showed him epic face, 10 bucks for almost 20 CCTVs and a boxes of wires?

They are copper mannn

Okay fine i called my dad, he didnt pick up his phone

Then i told him: My dad said here worth 20 bucks

Then he showed his dulan face and 顶 me: 酱你收着先啦！

without looking at me and pushed his trolley out of my house

Whaddaaa manner are you showing me?

S*hai bugger! dai lei sei forever be a "sao gao bow zi" man!

Cant you just said sorry you cant buy it with manner and at least give a goodbye smile?

Even without sorry you can just shake your head and go away, but not scolding me like im a begger that was begging you for 20 bucks

Hell man im just saving the world, if not we would have just thrown it!

Dont ever pass by my house again you 2pid bugger!

why arent you blind instead of my cute little innocent cousin brother?

Sorry i dont mean to curse you but yeah you forced me to! >(

珍惜每一秒

2011-11-25T15:45:00.002+08:00

其实我妈的姨丈是我的谁？

让我想想……应该是姨丈丈 lol

我的姨丈丈现在还在ICU房里和死神争扎

舅母说今天是初一（是吗？），如果他能过到昨晚，就应该会活起来

结果没接到电话，应该还活着吧……

刚刚盲了眼睛的小孩是我妈的妈的妹的儿子的儿子，也就是她的表弟的儿子，

也算是我的表弟吧……

他伤了左眼的神经线，整个左眼黑了一圈，妈形容它的颜色像被人打了十拳 TT

我的姨丈丈就是他的爸爸的爸爸，啊，是爷爷

而且他的爸爸是长子，他自然而然就是长子嫡孙（在家庭里的位置很高）

如果他爷爷这个时候走了，他就得出现在丧礼，还得经历很多仪式

到时候丧礼都是烟，肯定对他眼睛不好

所以大家都祈祷我的姨丈丈必须撑下去，不可以死啊！

他爸爸现在到处带他寻医生

很多医生都说没药救了

他人小小就懂得跟他爸爸说：爸，不用紧啦，我还有一只眼啊，还看得见东西

还记得过年的时候他爸爸带他来我婆婆家赌钱，他人小小只就坐在沙发上玩电子游戏

他很小只，很可爱，像一粒球那样缩在一旁

他等他爸爸赌钱，累了，躺着睡着了

我还抚摸他的头，他真的很可爱

一夜之间，一粒可爱的眼球，废了

还没上小学就只剩下一只眼，以后他只能用一只眼看东西，那只眼肯定必须用2倍的力气，

慢慢地，那只眼也会受伤，渐渐，视力也会衰退……我不敢再想像了 :"(

只剩下一只眼睛，怎么考spm? 我希望我能够帮他什么，现在每次想到他以前天真活泼的样子，我就心碎了

SPM day 7

2011-11-24T17:17:00.002+08:00

今天爸爸载我放学，因为妈要去医院探望一个就快不行的人，

他是我妈的姨丈，也就是我的……

相信吗？考完试我5点才回到家，因为得跟着我爸去处理事情

结果拖着一个疲惫的身子回到家门，超不舒服

穿着校服也有11个小时了

妈突然跳出来，迫不及待要告诉我一些事情

我说：哎呀，让我冲个凉先啦……

她说：不可以！听我讲完先

结果，就撑着眼皮听她讲故事……

刚才她去医院探望她的姨丈，得知一些让她落泪的消息

她姨丈早前中了大肠恶性肿瘤，长期医治下，昨天终于宣布……快不行了

他的血压剩下5而已（正常人是130）

他待在ICU 房里，通常进去这种房间的，都很少出得来

这还不是重点，lol

重点是，他的儿子（我妈的表弟）刚刚和老婆离婚

老婆一个月前带着儿女去泰国旅行

（女儿小学了，儿子小学都还没上，我过年是还看过他们）

她们坐着泰国的旅行车(君仪说的 tut tut car)，突然被另一辆车迎面撞过来

撞得她们三个人弹/飞出去

结果，重点来了（我的眼皮撑大了点……）

taaddahhhhh~~

老婆断了条腿，左大腿，在泰国医治，泰国医疗太烂，把她的腿恶化

虽然是用螺丝接回了，但大腿肉坏死，必须每天一点一点铲掉 ~>_<~

结果左腿越来越短，变长短脚

没有飞机回来，如果要坐私人飞机，必须美金70千 O.O

更惨的悲剧来了，其中一个被弹出去的儿子，

还没上小学的儿子，还不懂写生字的儿子，还成天蹦蹦跳跳的儿子

左眼盲了…… :"(

我妈的表弟，老爸快死了，前老婆断了腿，儿子盲了眼

这个时候根本不知道该照顾哪里

试问，只不过在考spm的我，有什么资格抱怨？

Spm day 6

2011-11-23T21:38:00.004+08:00

Felt extremely hungry after add maths exam

mum brought me to kopitiam,

we ordered 1 mee, 1 roti bakar with chicken floss, 1 hot coffee, 1 ice coffee

and it's total price is same as a tall starbucks coffee LOL

rm2.3 and rm12.7, same are coffee, same tasty, is that the ice that expansive? haha

anyway, thanks mum for squashing my hunger ^^

When i first stepped into my room, i hardly recognize it

it is so neat and, some of my furniture were missing o.O

my hanging clothes were gone, my bed were made

awh, the "thief" was my mum, thanks mum for helping me to keep my room^^

I was about to take my bath

dirty clothes were all missing, instead of neatly arranged towels

and clean tiles

thanks mum for helping me to wash^^

i smelled bbq pork (cha shao),

that was my dinner!

I <3 cha shao, thanks mum for cooking it ^^

16 more days and i will never want to step into my secondary school anymore

bye seafield =)

even though, im proud of you :)

Urgh

2011-11-21T20:31:00.000+08:00

不去你的profile都不懂你从何时何日已经unfriend了我

…………………………………………

……………………

………………………………

………………………………

我真的不知道还能说什么

一切都没有了，光光

清到光光

连一丁点沙尘细菌也没留下

也许你做得对，
干净，就是忘记的最俐落的方法

可是我还是有一点失落，
讨厌你 ><

P1 slower than Benjamin

2011-11-21T18:29:00.003+08:00

Whatafakkk

what happen to the internet???

I almost used up few hours to open a page zzzz

5 more subjects to go, but can only consider 4

i somehow have no stress at all on chinese, im not confident with that though,

but i just think that everything after 30th November is consider a new life already

I am so desperate to go Nasional Service, but please dont put me in the first batch!

I need the precious 3 months time to work, and attend some courses

I have no plan about where/what to study, it's all depends on my SPM result

I admit i like forensic, but see im now slacking and didnt find the urge to touch science subjects

Forensic without taking science? i think i can only go pasar pagi and be a butcher -.-

I really hate study so much, if i decided to go for science career,

i cant imagine how suffering am i

Did anyone realize i seldom blog about inner feelings already?

I just realized that but i think because i do not trust blogger anymore

When inner is meant to be stayed inside, why dig it out?

But one thing i can say here,

im so awaiting the following 10 days to pass, so, i can get rid of high school life

*even though according to seniors that i will miss it

I promise, 7th Dec once i step out of the school gate, i will never turn my head back

I wanted to disappear after that

But sad case, 9th i have to return books =="""

钱不够用，不够钱用

2011-11-20T21:18:00.003+08:00

Since 29th October i have a cold war with mum

so she decided to leave me alone and give me 300 a month as monthly salary

lunch and transport fees i got to settle myself

300 a month just for petrol and lunch, can a 17 teenager survive with that??

haha proven, NO lol

Problem is:

i only drive to school for less than a week i think, since 14th Nov i did not drive to school anymore

i only drive to tuition and group study with friends

since 14th Nov i have my lunch with mum again, the cold war became warm before spm start

Means, i only use my salary before spm, and few days after spm...

MEANS, i almost finish my salary in half a month!! TT

and now, i only left 36 bucks before the end of November

Where is my $$$? All to eating and drinking Omgawddd

10 more days for 36 bucks, each day 3.6 okay i swear i not gonna visit coffee house again before December!!

What a poor $ management, a good training though......

Benjamin the cutie tortoise

2011-11-19T18:50:00.004+08:00

Okay i have used up whole day to upload these freaking pictures

haih why the internet speed soooo faasssstttt

finally uploaded, nevermind :)

Okay, anyways

my house came a new member :D

and i dont know why i love it so much, compared to the old one :P

Taddahhhhhh~~!

See~~ so freaking cute :) It is a boy, so small and weightless ngehhh X)

I feel like naming him Benjamin, dont know why XD

But mum had already give him a name, i dont remember it because i dislike that name :(

Nah, this is the old lady, so freaking huge already, not cute :(

when we bought her, she is as small as Benjamin leh

i dislike her, so im gonna treat her with tindakan yang berat sebelah LOL

example: im gonna cut apple into small pieces and feed Benjamin one by one,

but im not doing this to her HAHA

This is the first tortoise we own, at least 5 years i think O.O

dont think she is a vegetarian, she eats snails! yucks! that's why she becomes so huge in 5 years

See this cutie little Benjamin, everyday eat eat eat! :D

Woooh, so frightening! I cant even hold her with one hand now urgh

and she RUN damn fast! I need a biggg force to catch her like this ><

The contrast LoL

Mum bought Benjamin, the main reason is to make them into spouse haha

but, how a guy with that size married a gal in this size? HAHA

Which one?

2011-11-19T00:56:00.000+08:00

i think something is wrong with me

i imagine him in the morning
i imagine his smile, his teeth
i think of our past

i stalk his photo in fb
i think he is really handsome
i have a crush on him

i open my phone album
i find for his photo
i ask myself, do i really love him?
yes i do

soon, i saw her photo after his photo
i really admire her, everything about her
i hope i can still see her every day later
i dont wanna lost contact with her

whats wrong with me ><

i just mentioned 4 people in my post
3 him, and 1 her

SPM day 4

2011-11-17T22:43:00.002+08:00

今天特别感触……

霎那间看见他了

…………

其实只不过是幻想。

日有所思，也有所梦

现在连日也有所梦，咳……

想起他的样子，其实他笑起来还蛮阳光帅气

我就是那么经不起风浪，竟然想起他 ==

如果我再不毕业，我就会一直这样继续下去，

所以我会期待20天后的日子，再也不回头了

时间真的是唯一解脱的方法，等吧……

以后真的若付出不起，就别接受任何待遇

先甜后苦的滋味真的很难受～！

好吧，废话完了

还有两个星期的考试，说长不长说短不短

这次的大考完全没有紧张/认真的态度

绝对以坦然的态度考……哈哈

人长大了，真的越来越看开了

记得以前jy还骂我每次考完试都垂头丧气

There are so many trainers, teachers, coaches in the world

but being the qualify one, it isn't easy at all

I will work hard and hard from now onwards

SPM day 3

2011-11-16T19:36:00.002+08:00

I think Cepumas is the only hard issue in SPM 2011, for now

This is not what i meant, but the public meant haha

It was a great successful to stay up the whole night for sej

even though the productivity is low

Honestly i didnt read through everything in sej, unlike pmr

i was so unprepared this time haha

like some chapters, chap 2 f5, chap 8 f5, chap 9 f4 etc

i didnt even touch them, as i only memorize spot question

as expected, they came out all the hot topics

We should thank the government for the kbkk question

instead of all the isi perjanjian and tokoh's name

Everyone seem to blame the Negaraku, but what if they asked for the person who created the song? I BET everyone will be blaming again, because i just memorized it and yet i had forgotten now -.- (His name is Encik Saiful something)

Really thanks bii for the umaiyah thing, if not i will GG till nowhere now :"(

i can say i just bullshit for the whole paper, if they are not in the schema, nasib la haha

I got quite a lot of wrong answers, but i think it's okay la...

a great improvement for me

yesterday i did 7 sets of objective papers, and some of the questions came out again today

that's why output learning is more important ;)

7 more subjects, i felt like i just finished the appetizer, now come the main course!

Lets see how i GG in science subjects hehe

I kinda dislike to see you in school

i dont know you purposely or accidentally or coincidentally

sat infront of me in the canteen, went the pathway i waited my mum

why larh wanna ruin my mood

i dont wanna see red school bag -.-

SPM day 2

2011-11-15T20:17:00.003+08:00

今天大家都说英文很容易，

那拿A程度也提高了吧？

没想到我的国语竟然写得比英语还长……

啊～～

怎么两天都不够时间写？？

还有19张纸，熬过去吧！

今天突然看见隔两间的邻居搭棚

蓝色的棚……

妈第一反应：har？那个阿伯死了？？

*我们搬来这里都有11年了，都认识他11年了

之后我们才知道是他老婆去世了

结果整晚都在滴滴答答吹笛子，

我听着这些曲子读历史，很不是滋味

每次听着这些丧礼歌，佛歌还是什么跟灵魂有关的歌，

我都会很不舒服，感觉很伤心

本来身为未来法医的我，当然得趁机会目睹尸体，

可还是被妈妈留在家……啊～

一个两个都不赞成我做法医，尤其是婆婆

她说普提的脸色那么黄，黑，那么难看

就是吸尸气多，吸得整个人像僵尸

wtf?

此时此刻听着乐器伴奏，

心情很低落

Wulala...... count down 23 days =)

Edmund's birthday today...15 Jan and 15 Nov...hmm 10 months O.O

SPM day 1

2011-11-15T00:10:00.002+08:00

First day of SPM,

and it didnt feel like it's really an important day of mine

once in a life time LMAO

I felt no-stress and excited in the early morning

a great feeling of proud-ness appeared as i stepped into the school gate

saw teachers and friends, i felt that im just winning some trophy for the school

凯旋归来 wtf?

Okay so today's paper was okay,

but im a bit afraid that im out of topic lol

no point looking back the past right? *wink*

So today after school i went pasar malam

due to my tiredness and hungriness,

i only looked at one side when i crossed the road, hebatnya

then the other side which i ignored, came a kancil

luckily it's kancil, it drove not that fast and can brake immediately

the indian driver hon me from the starting of the road to the ending of the road lolz

then i was stunted and stood in the middle of the road,

the driver scolded me: tak tengok jalan kah?!

Awh kay, so my moral value is do not take life for granted, everyone has the possibility to die in the next second!

Nights!

First Aniversary

2011-11-13T09:50:00.002+08:00

We have been talking on phone everyday since the day one year ago
didnt know the person i hate so much last time can be my close friend today

Why i hate you last time?
due to your sampat-ness of always recording my name
haha

If we have different gender, we could be couples hahaha

I like you
for always pull me up
listen to my thoughts
scold foul words with me
crazy together
sleep late together
always try my first time
drinking
going sp for more than 12 hours
"爽快"
didnt popo mama
can decide an outing in a night
have mature thinking and attitude
have great persistence, responsibility
can solve problems calmly
etc

those are not easy, for a teenager to act
i can say none of my friends act like you

I didnt forget how we grow from a pure/dumb little kid until now
but i think you have the talent so dont need me to teach you can learn yourself

maybe without that program, we will be wasted our one year and now still a stupid innocent kid

i didnt regret for involving that program, even though we have gone through countless obstacles

I wanted to say thank you for leading me and helping me throughout this year

Maybe one day we will argue and break up
but i will try my best to maintain this relationship

Good luck in spm, dont be so humble, i know you can do well

Lets strive hard for the last time, 24 more days we will be crazy till nowhere

HEARTS <3

1 more day woohoo

2011-11-13T02:37:00.003+08:00

Drank edited nescafe+milo=neslo
Ate a bowl of kokokrunch
Im gonna create belly because of spm
awhhhmyyygawddd

Drew calander just now
one of my fav hobby haha
i like the feeling of looking forward to something
i dont really hope it will come
because when it arrives, means it's gonna end

27 more days, and i will feel lost
what to do?
no plannings
maximum 5 outings
1st one for my bii
2nd 38 maybe
3rd for 5B? or tt friends
4th for primary sch friends
5th for jy

okay thats all

then i will work hard to buy myself a car

should learn something else
but 3 months what can i learn?

hmm, ask me if im prepare for spm?
i will say no

spm so easy yet im still saying i did not prepare well
how am i gonna cope with stpm?

guess that im going f6
due to no hala tuju
tiada wawasan bagai layang2 putuskan tali
then i will mensia-siakan masa
then i will membabit dalam jenayah
then kebejatan sosial
then i will mempengaruhi kawan saya
then kadar berlakunya jenayah akan meningkat
then modal insan tidak akan dilahir
akhirnya negara tidak akan maju
dan Malaysia dilabelkan negara yang buruk

awh all are my fault :'(

okay ciao back to sejarah,
now is 3am hehe claps:

11:11 11/11/11

2011-11-11T23:11:00.000+08:00

Went Starbucks 3 days continuously OMG

I stayed at there longer than my real house

Ignore the coldness and stupid Jingo song,

it will be a perfect place

I enjoyed studying at there,

no computer

no charger(cant always play phone)

peer pressure to motivate myself

no boredom/loneliness

best part is can ask question from friends

Then, went Usj 9 to have our lunch

when we are about to leave and collect my car,

the cars were so close with my car

due to the double parking and so on

a van was actually blocking my car, a little bit

i think i manage to reverse, so i tried

the 2 cars beside me + the stupid van behind me were just so close with me

i think there were only 2inches between each gap

i was so afraid to scratch any of our cars,

so i tried to reverse and go in again, reverse and go in again

the point is my side mirror is blocked by the stupid van, and i cant fold my side mirror lolz

but after few tries, i finally managed to get out of the parking

So overall my point is,

Xin Er praised me: 你是我看过P牌驾到最好的

At that moment, i felt a bit consoled, or some kind of 成就感

Im somehow proud that luckily i didnt give up that time,

by throwing my licence and car keys to my parents

urgh, to pass through that period, it is not easy at all

Persistence, that's the only way

in order to succeed in anything

I can also feel that my driving skills are getting better(except for that day, damn pik chik)

at least after few bangs and scratches, things are going smoother

driving is not hard anymore, only recognizing the road made me mad X)

thanks daddy for buying an old car for me to practice <3

Btw,

I wore a red wushu t-shirt today

dont know why, i just feel like wearing it to energize myself

and i saw her wearing a red t-shirt too ;)

i felt a little bit excited that we have the same mind :P

Until dinner, i only noticed her t-shirt is actually also her wushu t-shirt

and i started to imagining how good if we are from the same gym..

Everytime see her playing or fooling around with her friends,

i will have a little bit disappointed...hmm why cant we be friends?

Im not lesbo....im just a little fans -.-

but she is really adorable haha

Then, on the way back to Starbucks from dinner,

saw my dear Wling buying food with her mum,

in ballet look ahaha

it's like so serious to attend a class...tie bun and stockings

for me sometimes when im rushing and dont have the time to comb my hair,

i will just simply tie it up and tuck in my shirt

it really doesnt matter because end up my hair will wet like grass @@

Soooooo, 2 days left

still remember the day i count down for 100 days

in a blink of an eye, it is really coming

I do fear, but not that FEAR lolz

28 more days to get rid of this stupid competition

why is it called competition? everyone is competing isnt it?

Come on just dont slack so much

that's all =)

Stalkers

2011-11-11T03:12:00.006+08:00

Omgawdddd now is 3.23am,

but what to do, have to scan something to people ;)

and it's freaking slow to uplaodddd

Since im so free, let's talk about hot guys :D

My current fav artist, he called Jim in 法政先锋III

He came Summit few weeks ago :"(

Hei ren & fanfan <3

How could they married??

I still cant believe it @@

Awh my current fav movie, Apple!!

Why the guy so shuaiiiiiii!!!!!

i super like this type of hair (except mohawk)

dang dang~ of course the one showing his abs ;)

I could like to be "friend" with him now :3

fyi, he called Zhen Tao, studying in Catholic but same tuition with me how bahagia is me hehehe

Awh, Edmund again ;D

Shuai byk byk also hehe

*tziae dont flirt him arr :P*

Ex-couples

hmm.....i post this up just to show that i love guys in this attire

fit, grand, burst :P

GUESS WHAT??!!

This pic is just too.......

OCCUPIED :D

Edmund actually danced with Thiam Meng and Andrea was so happy LOL

Ahh.....height contrast, not bad huh :DD

Im so proud of being a bc society member of SMK Seafield yeah yeah

Okies it's time to sleep,

uploaded dude go check it out ;)

Imma in love with Frapp

2011-11-10T19:46:00.003+08:00

Went Starbucks again the next day, hebat =)

*as in im sooner become a diabetes patient

This is the second Starbucks drink of mine,

Green Tea Cream Frappuccino ;)

I love its colour, so i ordered the tallest one,

which cost me rm16 . fml

but it seriously taste nice, will order again :)

Btw,

So great to have a car, WOOTZZ XDD

and mum is not around wahaha

she has been not at home for 4 days

i need to do all the house cores ALONE :"(

Only realize mum is so hebat, to take care of the huge garden

just 4 days, her plant changed to yellow colour lmao

so today i quickly water it, hope they can be alive again

In order to water ALL THE PLANTS,

it took me half an hour -.-

they have like unlimited stomachs to swallow my water TT

Then, due to my luckiness, i parked my car under the "tiang lampu" around Starbucks,

and when i collect my car, i hardly recognize it ==""

it's covered with bird's SHIT again. fml ttm

It's like a God gift that always drop from the sky ~.~""

I have to wash my car again, * i mean after few weeks didnt watch :P

Should i thank them for motivating me to wash my car???

And then, it's dinner time! Have to cook!!!

I persuade myself not to cook maggie mee,

but i have no time to wait for the rice, so i just simply find anything in the fridge

and i found frozen food!

Taddahhhhh~~

1 ham (nothing special)

2 eggs (with half-boiled egg yolks)

2 fishes (it's salted-fish! i only put salt on it, to keep its fresh/original taste wth am i talking?)

5 sausages (5 means give me five! -.-)

High in protein and fats, no fibre -.-

i really lazy to wash vege laaaa

*someone asked me straight cook it, she wants me to eat worms @@

Is this the life im gonna live on without mum? o.O

倒车！

2011-11-10T00:42:00.004+08:00

心跳依然未平复……

真的好久没试过这么恐惧、害怕、无助

以往的我无论遇到什么困难都会以坦然的心面对，

总有一丁点信心可以熬过

而这次，

刚刚经历了2次生死关头

重来没有这么害怕过

仿佛自己已闯进鬼门关

唯一庆幸的是有她在旁边

成为我的定心丸

可是恐怕她比我更害怕，反正我才是操控人

原来人一到了生死关头，

钱、还是任何一样东西，都已经不重要了

最重要生命保得住，尤其是我的乘客

才发现我丢不下我的家人和大考 wtf

*这有点太夸张

总之今天经历的事情，

会记录在我的人生历史里面 O.O

Btw, 这可是100%真实

这是我17年里第一杯星巴克饮料

Mocha Frappuccino =D

味道蛮好，只是比Pacific Coffee 苦了一点

这个星期里我去了3天咖啡厅读书，

老实说PC 比 Sb 好，环境比较清静 :)

这个星期里我也喝了3杯Chatime X)

自从长大了妈让我和咖啡以后，我就迷上了 <3

怡保白咖啡

金宝"gao"咖啡

Oreo coffee

Mocha Chillino

我 <3 咖啡 :DD

Day Dream 简单曲

2011-11-08T23:34:00.004+08:00

I listened this song through onefm,

and i love this song very much ^^

At first i did not really notice the MV,

but later on i only realise the MV is taken in...

SJK(C) Yuk Chai!! <<< my primary school :D

Waa....are the singers one of the exYukChai student also??

煎熬

2011-11-08T01:46:00.003+08:00

我真的很佩服作词人这么厉害把心里面所有的感情思想都简缩成那么有意思的歌词

而经历过，有同感的人，就会发觉其实每一个字都很有意思，不可缺

其实就只差那么一步

就那一步

结局就完全不一样了

而，这首歌也不会出现了

死屎

2011-11-07T21:41:00.004+08:00

昨天我们一家人去Asia Cafe吃晚餐

爸要看球，所以我们选了个靠近大荧幕+树下面的座位

我们各自去叫了食物，回到座位

突然，我发觉桌上有一坨半液体

我们一致都认为那是鸟粪，从树上掉下来的

我们抹掉，继续吃东西，然后拿东西盖着食物

我们叫了很多食物耶……

-鸡翅膀

-披萨

-螃蟹

-锅贴

-点心

-猪肠粉

-小丸子

-烧鱼

吃了不少钱，大排档吃东西也不便宜哦

吃到一半，突然我和妈都发觉有被水喷的感觉

我们心想是下雨，不过一两滴就又不加理会

终于又多了几滴，我们忍无可忍就换位子了

妈又去叫食物的时候，她背向我

我突然注意到她外套上的东西：鸟粪！

AAAAHHHHHHHHHH~~!!

就是说原来刚才那些 “水滴” 是鸟粪 ==""""""

也就是说我们吃了不少鸟粪 -.-""""""

最离谱的是乘车回家的路上，

我突然觉得手臂很痒，下意识地自己去搔痒

一搔，怎么黏黏的？

一注意看，我的天～～

我----碰----屎-----！！！

碰屎后，到家前的那段时间

是我人生中最难熬的时候！！！

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！！！！！

朦胧的主人

2011-11-07T21:32:00.002+08:00

上个星期六，我载朋友去吃午餐

我把车停好就进去餐馆

吃完后我们去取车，

走到我车旁，我按了很多次遥控器，车子丝毫没有反应

我朋友站在另一边也很好奇我为何那么久都不开门

我按了又按，还是没有平时解锁的声音

我心开始慌了：糟糕，不是车子坏了吧……

我尝试打开车门，说不定是车门没关好？

车门始终打不开

突然，我注意到了倒后镜挂着的吊坠

不对啊，我几时挂了这种东西

O.O""

我们两个同时爆笑，赶紧离开那辆车

脸色突然变成白色

啊～竟然认错车 ==""""""""

幸好我们开了那辆车的车门这么多次，车子都没有响 :P

2011-11-04T22:06:00.003+08:00

难过的星期五又过去了，而且算是最后一个了吧？

穿11个小时的校服，2年了才有点适应吧……哈哈

最开心的是有个好朋友愿意陪我度过这段日子

仔细想想，原来我这一路来有很多好朋友陪我度过

38- 很多，忘了 :P

Alvin- 对我很体谅，我不懂要怎样感激他

瑜莹- 常常帮助我，太感动了

Brenda- 陪我熬过最难熬的日子

"今天的大头虾 :P" - 也是太多，说不清 :D

Joy- 常仔细听我说心事，然后教我如何站起来

Noel- 哎呀，也是说心事的好对象，常扶我起来

Rm- 给了我很多精心设计的惊喜，很好的回忆

"黎明"- 一辈子的知音？哈哈

还有谁？想不起了 :P

突然想对这5年作出总结，但好像太早了吧？

这5年，不容易啊～

我要感激的人，不懂该如何表示我的谢意

因为大部分都会在一个月后各奔东西，或许30年后才出来聚聚？哈哈哈

我发现只要我好好珍惜即将失去的东西，以后就不会这么眷恋了

很多事情都是这样，珍惜了，就不会太过想念

所以我非常珍惜这几天上学的日子，仿佛每一口气我都有认真去呼吸

因为呼吸通常是不直觉的行为，哈哈

如果今天是以前，或许我会更开心

可是今天我也很开心了，总算好好珍惜了最后一天在课室里上课的日子

以后我会想念，也不会这么想念啦……哈哈

简称：没有遗憾

有一首歌是这样唱的：

我不想，我不想，不想长大

的确，长大了真的很复杂，很多不开心

仿佛婴儿只会躺在那边，只能看到一面的烦恼

小孩，能转头了，看到左右的烦恼

少年，能转身了，看到左右上下的烦恼

大人，根本左右上下前后都看到了，连斜的，隐藏的都看到……哈哈

妈说要回乡一个星期，这是以前根本不会发生的事情

她现在竟然愿意丢下我完全不管

我以为我会很开心，为自由而开心

可是我竟然很失落

我不懂我还能做什么……

反正凡事都没有重来

Typical thursday

2011-11-03T19:01:00.003+08:00

Haih, rain the whole day...

my clothes just cant dry up with this condition

Why count down 10 days? should be counting down 35 days ;)

35 days later, what will i do?

A brand new life is waiting for me perhaps?

not new la....as in a more complicated and challenging life

A bunch of new peoples are waiting for me, Africans? haha

A big decision is waiting for me, sport science? haha

A looking forward National Service is waiting for me, Sabah? haha

Oh yea, today is the 5th day....guess that my period is gonna end LMAO

New baby player =)

2011-11-02T16:56:00.001+08:00

If i am rich, i will just waste my money on sports items :)

Matthew

2011-11-02T00:33:00.002+08:00

This is my physics home tuition

finally it ended =)

What i meant is, it's very troublesome to go her house

her house is the one i mentioned before, 2 million house HAHA

2 million is buy an empty house only, without anything inside O.O

Due to the expansiveness of her house, her resident area is very strict

all rich people live inside O.O

so, it's very troublesome for visitor to enter that area

Everytime i go her house, i have to exchange my licence with their visitor pass,

then the stupid guard will follow my car into her house,

to let my friend(owner of the house) to sign a thing,

PROOF that im not a bad person, only can park my car there... @@

Hmm, so basically we have our tuition at her dining room...

her dining table is huge HAHA

This teacher is good, as in he is well-educated

he teaches A-levels, he speaks American slang

just that he not really good in teaching

like Encik Yusdin, doesnt really know how to express his knowledge

he always laughs at our Malaysian english, so we laugh at his mandrin too :P

One time he went Hong Kong, he wanted to order French fries

he didnt know how to speak in cantonese, so he just direct translate

he asked the waiter: ngo oii yat guo FATT KOK ZHA!

LMAO!!

FATT KOK ZHA = 法国炸 （in cantonese）

One more time, he told us his ex-student went a country to study music

he said the country: Bullsfisfk (something start with B)

Which all of us dont even heard that country before

Then he satirized us again,

he said: So you all only know country like China and Singapore?

LOL fine lo =="

Talking with him is like taking to an American

and he only got a B for 1119

haha, anyway thanks for his teaching =)

Bad start of november, good ending of november =)

2011-11-01T16:19:00.003+08:00

I heard the rain dripping on the roof

I looked at the garment rack throughout the window

I saw clothes were still hanging there

I quickly dashed down and collected them

I found that i only got to collect my own clothes

While mum's clothes were already been collected

I sneered

I embraced my clothes, with myself wet also

I stared at her, finding her shadow

Her shadow was moving, in a way that my wetness was not her business

I settled my clothes, and back to my sejarah

I read perang siffin

They are willing to stop the war when one of the party acknowledged the mistake

But my war is not stopped even i made an apology

HaHa

Should i mengislamkan my family then?

wahaha

Imma so happy

2011-10-29T16:56:00.004+08:00

The first man to attract my eye balls :D

The first man to shake my hand

The first man that i told him: you look very handsome today ;D

He really looked like a prince, didnt he?

I think i should stop fatt hao lol

His bow tie senget already, i felt like helping him to adjust XD

Okaaay, so yesterday's prom was quite an awesome night

once in a life only, to see every of my schoolmates in nice attire

for those who not really looks good usually, looks better

for those who looks great usually, looks even better :D

especially my few dear close friends, dress up like little princess ;)

Thanks mummy for fully supporting me during the preparation ^^

Thanks my dear friends for encouraging me to attend :D

Thanks wei wei for showing up, it was like a surprise O.O

Thanks those who took pictures with me, or help me took pictures :)

No regrets :)

Awh a 万众期待 night just passed like that

Really enjoyed the ballet performance :D

The food were.....okay laaa....i didnt eat fried noodles HAHAHA

Erm, sooo....basically is like that laaaa

not many things to be mentioned

Finally, the PROM has passed

meaning, the SPM is really coming

WAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH

I Love absy gurl...hahahaha

2011-10-28T00:37:00.003+08:00

Awwwh....i am wasting my whole night stalking her

my new babe :)

For girl to train abs is extremely hard...

that's why i respect their persistence more =)

Gonna try her workouts later, >.O

I love this picture so much

i like the colour match

that's why my sport shoe is in pink and black ;)

that motivates me to wear on it and train :)

Awh better dont let me find out any friend of mine have 6 packs

if not i will post your picture here :))

Okies......

just shut up and train

Beware of STALKER :D

2011-10-25T21:58:00.002+08:00

Feeling of love pilling up?

no? haha

but my heart is pumping <3

Im actually fast walking to pay up my oxygen debt after a sprint

suddenly he dashed to my front, passed by me

how could i dont chase up when i see such human?

ahaha lol

okay...he is not that muscular..but he is my cup of tea LOLL

he has my second fav muscle which is gastrocnemius :D

Im proud of myself that i can take his picture while i was running :P

I hope he can see my blog and i can marry him a.s.a.p :D

wahahahaha

~hey babe, i think i wanna marry you~

but the point is i dont get to see his face, he just ran too long

i know very sweat ._.

haih i wonder why stamina is sooo hard to train

even i started running like for 2-3 years, but my stamina just DONT increase -.-

i still feel like lack of oxygen @@

Eiks didnt know a stranger can be the post of today...

...with unknown face :P

Psychology

2011-10-24T11:35:00.001+08:00

我彷徨

我无奈

17岁到底应该是怎样？

有些人3岁已经拥有一身的本领

有些人12岁已经会独自搭飞机出国

有些人15岁已经可以在星光大道出名

而，

有些人7岁还在吃奶瓶

有些人16岁还要妈妈每天叫他去喝水

有些人30多岁身为人母还不会煲饭

17岁，还有2个月就迈入18岁的我

其实算什么？

应该还是个乳臭味干的青少年

还是个精明能干的大人？

我应该继续过我本来的生活，

还是为自己还有很多不懂的事情而努力攀爬？

可是目前17岁的我，

其实什么都不懂

面对挫折虽然会努力解决它

as i always say: Problem is used to solve, but not blame

可是解决之余不忘了沮丧和叹气

有时沮丧之气太猛烈，自我了断的想法也会涌上来

17岁的我其实真的什么也不会

面对近来发生的事情，我很想撞墙

昨天听着妈的话，我坐在她隔壁

我很想哭

欲哭哭不出

她的问题，虽与我无关

可是我却觉得很烦厌

我帮不了她

我很努力想办法帮，可是力不从心

她所面对的问题应该如何解决？

我很苦闷，也很哭闷

我觉得很复杂，很乱

我只有那17年的经验，我真的不知道该如何帮她

没有人可以帮助她，自己的事情就该自己解决

她问我：其实我跟你讲这些事情，你会不会觉得很有压力？

我说：当然会，而且很烦，很想哭

我不知道我不知道

我不知道这一刻我该做什么

啊～～～～～～

我俩还是出去喝杯酒吧

Incredible Saturday

2011-10-22T18:00:00.002+08:00

I felt sorry again after everytime i blamed or scolded anyone in my blog

I hope those who i mentioned in my scolding post will forgive me :"(

although i dont have the guts to point you out ><

you have your own good habits too, just that i didnt show out in words obviously

but im truely appreciate it from the bottom of my heart =)

but im sure everyone has mistakes right? You can scold me too if im wrong

it's my fault but the only excuse i made for myself is, i found a better way to release :)

Sorry again, if i hurt anyone of you (even some of you are not able to see this)

haih, i should have privated my blog actually

i shouldnt let anyone except me to know my true feelings

as in this is the only place for me to release maximum thoughts

bla~

15k and 0.1k

big difference indeed =0

it's the point of lucky or unlucky

my heart was pumping

i dont really believe my eyes, my once idol was infront of me

even though your words are purely bullshit

but that is a kind of hope to me

that is unbelievable

no one can/ should take it for granted

Im quite like laughing or felt disappointed during your sgm

i felt like im so dumb to listen to your bullshit again and again

how many failures you have met, i dont know

how hard you did, i dont know

how many obstacles you have gone through, i dont know

how much tears and sweat you have paid off, i dont know

how much you have lost, i dont even know

what i can only see is your gain

thats it

to strive up or giving up, im not really sure

to continue or quit, im still considering

as what you have gained, you has to lost something precious

everyone only live once, why are we still so keen on what we are losing?

A new slogan i guess,

Nothing can influence my decision

A phucking friday

2011-10-21T20:46:00.002+08:00

I really dont know how to describe today

what a freaking day

For a moment i shouted at the laundry room

The feeling is so complicated

I really dont know what is the meaning of love and hate already

The moment we are together, actually im very uncomfortable

i dislike your duo duo lan ye attitude

I think i hate u all more than love now

i hope this not-so-long holiday can let me get rid of this bunch of people temporary

peeps,

i dont duo duo lan ye

i dont make you feel awkward

i dont kill your self-esteem

DOESNT MEAN that i dont know how to -.-

what is friends?

when they only make you feel you are a nothing but worst than zero

when they only throw ice to you during winter time

i thought a friend should be giving me their hand when im down?

omgawd i havent met my college friends, how worst more are they?

you guys are just disappointing me all the time

i dont know it's my own problem or what

i freaking hate to go prom now

i feel like wasting the 90 bucks

again, i told myself

because of your good, i forgive you

dont doubt

im talking about you

if you are perasan

yeah is you

dont ask me

i wont say anything

but if u think it's you then it's you

a tool

a medium

a balloon, it gonna burst

a tyre

oh yea is a SPARE one

AND this is my role in ur life

It always seem like it's my matter

but it's only related to me through you

please dont always throw your matter to me

im not a puppet

if you forget, im reminding you

im also an ordinary human

i will have jealousity too

I just dont know or dont want to explain here

Wait barh, until one day i really burst,

i will give up on you

what is friend to me? when im absolutely no feelings towards you

as in a love to a friend

im about to press the backspace button

but nevermind, in case im died the next moment, no one know what's happening

blarh~

i started to dislike you now

please dont let me hate you

as im trying very hard to adapt to you

thats it kthxbye

2011-10-17T18:44:00.003+08:00

第一次从学校驾去SP,

至少现在比较熟了吧……没有以前那么糟糕

和你总是有聊不完的话题

今天还能吃我梦寐以求（几个星期）的食物

想必知道我在指什么 :)

其实在压抑住自己不要说

可是我还是说了

或许正处于案发现场，触感伤情

我以后不会再记住了，不会再提了

发现他的户口已经被删除，

有一丝失落

自作多情的我觉得他想把以前一切的事情忘得一干二净

一点痕迹都不给留

连那唯一的“曾经拥有”都删除了

所有回忆已经没了

就好像一场很大的梦，终于飘走了

失望，始终还是有

此刻失落的心情

就好比刚刚被朋友删除了

放弃了

你这么放得下的态度

让我的心像被捅了一刀

我到底曾经算什么？

Left how many Saturdays?

2011-10-15T14:18:00.002+08:00

Is everyone acting like the right-hand side apple?

Do you think that the left-hand side apple is acting too?

Yes i guess

Everyone is acting

If act doesnt harm everyone,

why not?

Actually acting is not a bad habit

but it's a way for us to force ourself to be positive

Maybe it's a difficult task

but it's more difficult for other people if we arent acting

as in, affecting other people's mood

But sometimes i would blame people: Bad mood is not a big deal, please care of other people's feeling

But sometimes i would also blame: Can u please understand me? Im in a bad mood

haha @@

Tired of bullshitting, sorry to make u read such nonsense again X)

I wonder why my house is sooo hot and dark in the morning

i dont on lights in the morning, mum will scold me for wasting electricity

instead she will ask me to read beside the window, my second living room is surrounded by windows

but it's hot

it makes me feel sleepy and dizzy

Yesterday after tuition, i sleep from 6pm-8.30pm

suddenly i woke up, thought of my dinner

so i finished my dinner and cleanings, sleep at 9.30pm until 10.30am the next day XD

I really dislike my house environment

even lights are on

i always complain to mum: your house looks like ghost house

and she ignored me :'(

I prefer my friend's house

she live in a bungalow, at least 2Million

we have home tuition at her house every week

her house isnt big, but it's comfortable

it's bright

it's cold, air-cond on for the whole house

it's neat, like a show room/hotel

there is a piano room specially for her grand piano only

it's open-style at the ground floor

her dining table is huge

like those company meeting table lolz

i dont really know how to describe the comfortableness

i just know, she has to appreciate what she have now

electricity bill 700 bucks a month O.O

I have seen many cases, even myself

business man has ups and downs

no rich man forever

how many friends of my dad

go through downs for years

bankrupt

from a big house move to a small house

sell off the nice car

err.....a precious Saturday just pass like that

i should back to my books :0

难过的一天（难度过）

2011-10-14T17:43:00.002+08:00

谢谢你的Twister =)

我以前一直都不会买这个来喝

因为它很贵，我宁愿买别的

而我的第一瓶则是他送的

所以特别感动 :)

你啊，今天不知道是不是特地的

偏偏买这个款

是不是想提醒我什么？lol

好，先update一下我在maybank看到的奇事

有觉得这个人有点……太高？

想象一下我是他……我不要！

好像一个怪物 :P

本来以为我的脚没事

怎知真的扭伤了

Aiks ><

连踩Break都没力 TT

幸好还可以走路哈哈

2011-10-14T01:02:00.001+08:00

I shouldnt share my story at first
i regretted like hell

i shouldn't
i shouldn't
i shouldn't

i hate my mouth

thank god i gonna leave here

2011-10-13T14:58:00.001+08:00

-backspaced-

第一天上学

2011-10-12T18:36:00.006+08:00

This will be a long post again

Just now went Mydin after sch
mum in bad mood, so she wanted to buy some flowers to decorate
i followed her to the flower department, and waited for her to choose

This is so familiar
i used to do this with her since im still a cutie little angel wtflol

Last time when she was still doing her florist business,
she always went different flower shops
as in factories/ 批发商
there are all real/fake flowers, vase, decoration items etc
a big factory, few floors....

And the point is, IT WAS SO BORING...@@
i have to follow her all the time
no ipad, no iphone, no psp, no wifi, or whatever
i have to walk behind her shadow all the day

I have no artistic talent
i hate flowers
i dont find flower's scent
i dont think flowers are beautiful when they are in the bouquet or vase

Yeah, since UPSR is over, mum left the flower shop
she has to take care of me *guilty*
and of course, we less visit those factories later *wahaha*

When mum is still managing the flower shop
i have to stay at there after school until night
every 2 days, a van will come and pick me up for tuition
that van was fun
all of us packed into the small little old van
teacher became the driver
and our memory all left in her house

We have tuition at upstairs

I miss the teacher who used to flip our books with saliva
I miss you who sit beside me for 2 years
I miss those days teacher used to beat us until we cry
I miss you that taught me to play 笔仙

You are the first person who taught me to contact with those spirits
you drew a paper
you taught me to put our thumbs on the pen
i heard you mumbling
i felt my arm moving in involuntary action
after we asked a question, the pen will lead us to the words
when we heard teacher's footsteps, you quickly end the game
i can feel the spirit is leaving
you threw away the lead

And we continue our lesson with laughter under our table
we knew what were we laughing at
this is the secret among us

Soon, UPSR is over
we never back to that place anymore
i lost your phone number
i lost your address
no facebook that time
no friendster that time

The only thing that keeps in my mind is your blurry face
how i hope we can just come out for a tea...
韩雯颖 =）

Back to reality, mum bought a bunch of flowers
then i order Hot & Roll in Mydin
i asked: do you have bolognese beef?
the worker give me an epic look (o.O?)
and i gave him back an holy cow look (.____@)""
why franchise has different menu??
so i just order double cheese onion,
which is a Pls-Dont-Order-Next-Time flavour
haihz

Today saw a sentence in wei wei's bday card, given by wl
"虽然你整天为了忙着拍拖而爱放飞机，但因为你的好，我原谅你"

我顿时犹如当头棒喝

“因为你的好”

的确，我应该 “因为你的好而原谅你”

今天午餐时妈跟我聊了整个小时婆婆的是非
我本来听了很不爽
心里很多抱怨她（婆婆）的句子

可是，我或许应该 “因为你的好，我原谅你”

学习原谅真的是一门很高超的本领
或许wei本着这种本领，才每天过得开开心心

本来昨天听到你又不去Prom的消息，
我很火
你还连续send了9封
每封的开头都是"sorry i cannot go"

我就知道我本来就不应该再相信你
你怎么可能那么顺利出席
可是我还是相信了
我愿意说服自己的心，认为你这次一定会讲义气

你一再一再让我失望
我本来今天已经很不爽你
可是我还是装得若无其事，很假吧
还听说明天你要搬过来跟我们一起坐
我是：天啊，我不要听见你那把假声音
装得很热情，事实上是自私自利，不讲义气的朋友

可是，今天看见wl写的 “因为你的好，我原谅你”

或许我真的不该耿耿于怀，斤斤计较，像个小人一样

忘记吧，不记得你的坏了…… ><

我要走

2011-10-11T14:04:00.003+08:00

今天轮到我放人鸽子…

好难过
觉得自己很无能，无助
很失败

答应了我最后又反悔

我真的不再相信承诺
我被承诺骗了实在太多太多

在房间里呆了一个下午
发脾气+弄生日卡

小学中学
我保证大学不会再重蹈覆辙

我不会再住那么远

我其实没资格抱怨什么
只有认命

今天非常失落
想躺在床上睡到明天

2011-10-11T01:18:00.002+08:00

能看到那个青灯

不容易……

哈哈 =D

我学懂了珍惜

因为你会在一瞬间又消失了

:"(

半夜一个人听歌

静静地忧郁

原来是种享受

在home看到你

不由自主地按了进去

克住自己

还是按了进去

看见你受伤的那张

我突然心很痛

看见你跟她黏得很紧拍照

我突然吃醋了

看见你拿着树枝烧起来

想起你的部落

你也希望某些回忆能像树叶一样烧成灰

你解脱了

可我还困在里面

我怎么可以这么犯贱

我其实就是

失恋……了

Fk off peoples

2011-10-10T22:28:00.002+08:00

I kept trying to make my mouth into U-shaped
but i just failed
it just happened to be a n-shaped

Im so sorry to people who are facing me
Im just in a bad mood

With a bad mood coming home from tuition
signed into fb
and saw fk type comments zzZ

Why peoples like you on earth like to give bad comments on normal stuffs?
Is it funny? or you are just too bored and try to find something to criticize?
As in find some bones in an egg zzZ

I tell you, im sooo sensitive in this NOW
whoever who did this to me AGAIN, i will hate you like fking seriously

wtfffffffffff

家有一老，如有一宝
is the suckest slogan ever i had heard

what is the meaning, i dont know
i only know
家有一老，如有一糟

Im so totally fed up with the old ladies in my life
especially the one that just leave my house
after staying for a week

She is not the cold blooded grandma i have mentioned last time
that is dad's mum

Who am i mentioning now is the worst
mum's mum

I met them, and i learned something
better die at age of senior citizen
60 maybe?

人老了，只会带给别人麻烦
本来一个平平安安的家庭
让你搞得乱七八糟

伤害别人的心，
弄疼我耳朵

每次你一转身，
妈一定向我投诉投诉投诉
而我每次听了也心很烦

我也知道，她忍到你很辛苦
毕竟你是她妈
我对你的行为举止倒没什么感觉
因为我都不在乎你

没错你很疼我
可是你的缺点已经大大遮掩你的优点

我真的顶你不顺
你们老人家可以快点离开吗？

每天在那边ngam ngam cham cham ngam ngam cham cham ngam ngam cham cham ngam ngam cham cham ngam ngam cham cham ngam ngam cham cham ngam ngam cham cham ngam ngam cham cham ngam ngam cham cham ngam ngam cham cham ngam ngam cham cham ngam ngam cham cham

人家说你：不关你的事就别插嘴啦，你又不懂，又要加把嘴
你就生气咯，说负气话咯
吵架咯，弄到鸡犬不宁咯
妈妈就很冤咯，又跟我投诉咯

Everything sure must give comment
not everything is your business kay?
can you just shut ur fk mouth up?

5个大人出去吃晚餐
那种炒菜的
rm50+ 会贵咩？

还要在那边ngam ngam cham cham ngam ngam cham chamngam ngam cham chamngam ngam cham cham

说：“har? 酱贵？？！！我以为rm16罢了”

plssss laaaaa......rm16吃屁？

今天难得妈带我去吃Tenji,我都说我请你吃了
才rm30一个人
还要在那边ngam ngam cham chamngam ngam cham chamngam ngam cham chamngam ngam cham cham

Japanese buffet leh! 想怎样？去吃Jogoya都差不多rm100一个人啦…………

不要以为她是个很省吃俭用的老人家
她赌博可以赌到疯掉
买4D可以一天买几百块
可是一个30块的buffet就ngam ngam cham chamngam ngam cham chamngam ngam cham cham

她打麻将可以打到不用吃饭
一直要别人跟她打
她知道我要考试了还叫我陪她打
打一整天会很累的
打到晚上，问你几时要停
你说累了才停
问你几时累，你说不懂
=="""""

和你打过麻将的人都懂
一坐下去不用想起身
有理过别人的感受？

人酱老还像个公主千金
野蛮野到够力
家人好心劝导，不听！
血压高糖尿病什么都有
叫你戒口不听
爱是什么就吃什么
常常听那些三姑六婆的废话
你的孩子孙子比较有知识还是她们有？
她们讲的废话就听，我们跟你讲的知识不听！
有时她跟我们讲那些三姑六婆教她的东西，简直不Make sense，乱乱来
她就是跟着 =="""""

我们叫你不要吃这个，你又说你朋友讲吃了好
好心啦……
糖尿病的人可以一天喝3杯咖啡？
吃几个榴莲？
人家送你2盒月饼照吃
=="""""""

吃咯！吃到血压糖尿什么都来
知道她说什么吗？
：“有药嘛……”

zzzZZZ

再来，超级无敌挑剔
去外面吃东西
我们很了解你，所以叫你选位子
你又假假说：随便啦，你们选啦
我们选好了，又ngam ngam cham chamngam ngam cham chamngam ngam cham chamngam ngam cham cham
一大堆complain, 又要换位子

还有很多东西，我都懒得讲了

这些东西不是发生一次了
几年了，我都麻木了
永远不会接受自己的过错，不会改过自新
不听取别人的意见
哦，应该是说不听我们的意见，别人三姑六婆的就听

好咯，今天终于走了咯，轮到住舅舅家
还没过第一晚，就跟他吵架
舅舅叫她不要多多话讲，废话就不要讲
她就骂回我舅舅咯
本来是骂舅舅罢了，突然又牵扯到我妈进去
妈又来跟我怨

我很烦

最好有一天你吃到进医院
你就会知道
你身边的家人对你的用心良苦

Monday lu

2011-10-10T13:23:00.003+08:00

I think im fktard Begger holycow
haha

Recently,
'persist=success' doesnt apply on me

I dont know what else can i do
except for stop begging
and accept the fact

I feel like deleting my fb acc
but i will regret...perhaps?

Saw a horoscope list yesterday
about we will single until what age
there states 93.99% accurate

I test on my mum,
i told her, according to ur horoscope,
u will be single till age of 26
then she told me that she married at 26
zz

and Capricorn will be single till 28
oh, still a long way to go...haha

Hmm, i will listen to my parents' advice
go F6

But please dont force me to back Cfield
this time, i will never make that mistake again
no one can affect my decision
X)

Hmm

2011-10-09T22:18:00.002+08:00

From my opinion,

from love to dont love

must have something serious happen

I wonder why can love change to dont love so easily?

if someone can dont love someone so easily, means they dont love that person really much in the first place?

Oh, finally this appeared in my life

i love someone very much, since......f3 i think

but recently i seriously dont love ta anymore,

according to my opinion,

something serious had happened....

That's, ta is not my type

just like how he said to me

I dont understand it at first,

but sooner when i apply it on myself,

i think i get the meaning

That's, you are totally disappointed on someone

fed up

find no point wasting time on that person anymore

If you are giving up, why you start in the first place?

It explained like this:

If you dont cut open the durian, how you know it's good condition or bad condition inside?

Yea, that's why you start in the first place, later found out that the durian doesnt suit your taste

that's why you dont wanna taste it, or even touch it anymore

This explain why you love someone so badly at first,

and can give up so easily...

haha, sorry for making you to read such bullshit

I didnt try my best,

but im giving up lastly

Teacher asked us to cherish our secondary life today

he said he chased 4 gals during his secondary life,

but all failed...lmao

That's why i believe that love in secondary life is just an experience

He also said that, adult's world is much more complicated

When we grown up, we will understand

But i already felt that my life is complicated enough,

how can i cope with the worst?

That's why, must cherish the very last year...

How should i cherish my secondary life?

-No OT

-Friends all surrounded

-No need to worry about $ so much

-Can go home early

-Can simply do homework

-Not many cunning people around

-Dont have to worry about uniforms lol

-Dont really have to fight for something

That's all i can think

But i think i hope to be an adult as soon as possible

Anyway, every stage of human is Difficult.....sigh

2011-10-09T11:31:00.001+08:00

This is so true

Exacly what is in my mind.

Copied from my friend's status.

有些人，喜欢批评别人。我不知道你的批评是你真的有根据，还是纯粹你信口开河？想问你两个问题，你批评人时，请问，第一，你对那个人的了解有多少？第二，你批评人的资格在哪里？你论断人，就会被人论断。我真的很好奇，你批评人的时候，到底心里有没有愧疚感，还是已经被你的良心吃掉了？你不了解某人，就以自己外表看到的做出批评，这是极度的不尊重，以及诽谤。以你这样的行为，我只能说你还不够成熟，至少，不够成熟去论断别人。
对，这段话，就是写给你看。希望看了，你至少给与，对自己，和他人，一个该有的尊重，谢谢。

sien

2011-10-09T09:51:00.002+08:00

Insomnia last night

went to the living room

read something until 2am

oh, maybe i should sleep

9.30am i woke up

ikr i damn hebat

Waiting for someone's reply is sucks

Being forced to minimize my sleeping time

Im not fear to lose

I'll keep trying

If im about to give up

Why am i starting in the first place?

Today is the first class after my competition

teacher will surely comment about it

hmm, we have been practising almost a year for this

since it's over now, got to learn new stuffs maybe?

Btw, tomorrow mum gonna eat Jogoya with her female partner

haihz

why can this happen?

while a person that dont eat raw food is going

and a person that Loves raw food is not going

I feel so lonely

wtf

omgwhyamithinkingofyouagain

2011-10-08T14:42:00.003+08:00

考试的时候

我竟然斯了一张纸

画并图了三个字

打算给你

可是，

你的背影让我把那张花了我半个小时图的纸

丢掉

我很蠢

我真的很蠢

很蠢

我知道的

可是我再蠢

也不会比你蠢

我知道的

你的蠢事，老实告诉你

我是忘不了

我自问我没有你蠢

没有你的勇气

没有你的毅力

没有你的坚持

本来我很痛的

因为你在我心里

渐渐的，不怎么痛了

因为你已经掉进我的心底

我已经看不到你

感觉不到你

你掉得很深，很深

我不知道在哪里

只是，掉到一个再也出不来的地方

让我一个人的时候，才发觉你的存在

这一切一切，都是 K-a-r-m-a

我从你那儿学会这个词

学会了

自己也会用了

本来我不相信这种鬼话

可是后来，

经历过了

明白了

世界不是公平的

努力=\=成果

珍惜=成果

错过了，就没有回头

有心不怕迟？

这是自我安慰的话

不然黄小琥为什么唱《重来》？

这个世界就是因果报应

那当然，世界无绝对

not all laws applied to everything

成绩不好，努力了当然会有成果

只是生活中大部分，错过了就是错过了

而你，

又放我飞机

应该是说放我鸽子

我这个人会给别人很多机会

可是错过了，就是错过了

如果我还会再理你…………

我只不过是一粒小沙子

你多我一个不多，少我一个不少

对于我不喜欢了的人，

我毫无眷恋

人

2011-10-07T17:19:00.002+08:00

刚刚写作文

发现我人生的不开心

不过与感情和钱

又爱又恨

环绕着我

男的女的通通有

说过多少次，

no love no friends

想个屁啊你？

想想想，又能怎样？

难道我要跟一个女的讲：我蛮喜欢你

然后转过头又跟一个男的说：我为了你吃醋啊

是什么东西让我在成长过程中学会这些，

人类的错误思想

写了那么多废话，你们还在我脑袋里

算了吧……

Steve Jobs

赚了那么多钱，应该活久一点来花

人，也不过是一个骨头加肉的东西

没有盔甲，没有外壳，没有毛发，没有爪子

没有毒素，没有吸血本领，没有角，没有庞大的身体

不会飞，不会奔驰，不会爬树，不会在水里呼吸

不会一口气把别人吞了，不会游得很快，不会转进泥土

那人类还有什么用？

人是那么的渺小，脆弱

除了拥有智商比较高的头脑，根本一无是处

我想说的是，我一个酸梅也没发明出来

如果我比 Jobs 短命，大概还有39年寿命

还可以吃39个生日蛋糕而已

所以……

为何斤斤计较，折磨自己？

所以我的重点是，我原谅你们了 :)

即使你整天放我飞机，

反正都放了几年

我找不到不生气你的理由

生气，是无法避免的

只是看那个人怎么尽快把它治服

只要再遇到不顺心的事，

必须记得我还有39年可以过罢了

失去你这个朋友，

多你一个不多，少你一个不少

这个世界就是因果报应的咯

你种下的果，还想有怎样的花？

放下吧……

忘记不值得的人事物，

珍惜该珍惜的人事物

还有37天就考试了

真的是一个月了

真的来了

真的

37天+一个月后，

并不是休息的时候

而是必须更紧凑的时候

人生就是一场马拉松咯……

Jobs 跑完了

而我……才刚刚起跑……

Tmr is Fri ady

2011-10-07T00:36:00.003+08:00

Who takes the step first

in a relationship

does it really matter?

Boy should take the initiative

Girl should wait for initiative

Is this applied until the end of human?

Anyway, if you didn't feel, or just act

i'm telling you here

cause you are my bff

this is meaningless actually, just i feel like telling out

I felt super left out, and a bit jealous

that day

I'm just suffering from another jealousity,

and here comes the more powerful one infront of my eyes

Since i told u that i admire him first........

.........lolz just a bit funny

But what can i do?

and i won't do anything of course

Just that, i don't feel like hearing his name beside of serious matter

友谊第一，爱情第二 =]

LOL does my post random enough?

To fulfill your request only laaaa

you asked me to update what :P

Must be thinking i'm a pervert right?

haha

Actually this is you, me and them la

Just like a dog seeing another naked dog on a street

lolx

I like this photo

but not about what are they doing

I like the lines

人体的线条

I remember i saw my friend's sketch book last time

it's all naked drawings inside

and it's pretty awesome

Since he has the talent in drawing human,

he continue his studies in The One

And he can just simply sketch a face in 5 minutes

with lines, structures, perfect measurement of organs

WITHOUT eraser

I actually love this too,

just that i don't have the talent

what to do?

takkan throw my parent's $ into the salt water

Besides, i really appreciate what God has made

Guy has nice muscle lines

Girl has nice slim lines

as in, they are just perfect

not in opposite

(i dont know how to elaborate :P)

Just have a look at the picture above

and enjoy them

Hmm, is this consider as a hobby, dream or ambition? haha

无题

2011-10-05T19:14:00.002+08:00

之前看到这个照片，我发现我好喜欢这种感觉

这种清新、自由、清爽、干净、辽阔、舒服、享受的感觉

早上刚睡醒，一打开门

一股春风迎面而来，呼吸海水的味道

换上泳衣，跳进泳池，拿着香槟，开始我的每一天……

这个地方也渐渐成为了我梦想的家园

希望以后挣到钱就搬到这种地方，和心爱的人活到老（哈哈）

之后，又让我看见这张照片

突然，我又喜欢这种感觉

我觉得，我的最心底处就是这种环境吧……

我对这张照片比较有亲切感

我喜欢这种害怕、阴暗、破旧、静的感觉

我希望能立刻搬进那里

自己一个人，坐在那边

我觉得很舒服

不管怎样，我还是待在这里

我还是现在的我

那个令我讨厌的我

我那么希望能去服务营

不是因为那是政府的还是3个月还是什么

我只是希望能给自己一个远离这里的机会

不会太远，不会太久，不会太辛苦

有一点煎熬，对！就是这种机会

暂时告别这17年来所有的一切

回来后，能有个全新的自己

即使是瘦了，黑了，伤了

我不想再以这个身躯，心灵去继续度过我的下半辈子

以前我小的时候，父母常带我去旅行、去酒吧

而我都忘记了所有的回忆

甚至去过哪里我都不懂

等我长大了，懂得把旅程记录下来了，懂得欣赏旅程了

却没再带我去旅行了……大概毕业旅行是我最后一次出国了吧

等我长大了，烦恼多了，需要酒精了，懂得欣赏酒了

却少带我去酒吧了

我才17岁，还算未成年

大把时间

还有多少事情还没做

或许我在期待着……

我的心里话，始终不是打字打得出来

不写了

Boring day

2011-10-04T23:06:00.003+08:00

Nothing much to update

It's a sad thing to go library alone

friends are all going school

i just cant cherish the quietness of my house

i just cant study at there

i need a noisy environment, while seeing people doing the same thing with me

Im so weak, tired...

i cant do sports well today

i felt like sleeping while running

everyone is stressing me

yea, 40 days

it's seriously time, it's time!

guess that tmr have to go library alone again

Anyway, i need a drink....

not forgetting sushi,

i miss you =)

Human

2011-10-04T00:09:00.001+08:00

i dreamed of him
it's happy

dreaming is a good thing actually
u can imagine whatever you like

Through this dream
yuan lai wo hai shi bu she de ta

seem that nothing is great about him
but most important is the moment i stay with him
it's very comfortable, right?

you love me, i love you
this is a seldom phenomena

when someone treat you good
dont ever take it as granted
because, it will just disappear in one night

i always say, everything must
gou tong, tan kai lai jiang
but suddenly i found that there's no benefit to be honest

so, just appreciate whatever is worth for you to pay your heart
others, just ignore and forget :)

do not blame on anything
it's just karma

how much u pay, how much u get.

Strangers

2011-10-03T10:23:00.005+08:00

-1/10/2011-

I cant believe there will be a day that i stay with this guy for 12 hours

@@ or :D ?

haha

It's quite an unproductive day

in out Starbucks for 3 times

I actually don't get the point for staying at there for the whole day

intention or gentleman?

Loitering around

no movie, no pool, no shopping

I actually appreciated the day

but somehow never reach tat h-a-p-p-y

i know

i love the feeling for being emo

it's born to be

-2/10/2011-

Can spot me?

It can conclude as a lucky day

but a disappointed day

again,

'how much u pay, how much u get'

'how much u pay, more than how much u get'

and This Is Sports.

The world is wu yao ke jiu

2011-10-01T17:37:00.002+08:00

Very good -.-

hebatnya

the world is evil

I tried to endure, endure, endure

but im burst

B-U-R-S-T-!

I dont love you anymore

please fk off from my life,

friends.

Do your best

2011-10-01T00:16:00.002+08:00

Latest outing ever with friends
12am only reached home from movie
O.O

That is always so great with a car =)

Beh tahan go watch Nasi Lemak 2.0
wow, not bad huh ^^
laugh my ass out seriously XD
only Malaysian understand :P

My friend went to buy ticket 2 days ago
and it was almost full @@
i think it's piao fang can win Johny English o.O

She is down today
and her eyes are swollen
she cried the whole night

Yesterday she just got her piano theory results
4 marks to pass :"(
guess that piano exam is really hard ~(-_-)~

Hope she can do better next time,
before her grade 8 practical exam

phew~ luckily there is no theory exam in wushu
if not i have to memorize 南拳手型手法的步骤：
准备，穿桥，边拳，截桥，标指，叠掌，切掌，抛拳，挂盖，冲拳，单指，鹤嘴，虎爪，收

haha i can remember it,
im proud of myself XDD